junie's world...

2011-10-07T08:14:00.001+08:00

sumtimes I tink tis is human being-u want ppl to tell u e truth, but when the truth is being told, u will be reli unhappy! idk lei.. just felt unappreciated at times.. mayb cos tis is a Virgo trait ba.. haix.. unhappy ahh~ at times I feel reli stupid.. for wat sia! ppl dn even bother about u de ma.. like 做贱自己咯.. ahh~~ stupid me!! sianz!!

at work.. work for so long le still Duno hw to read eeg.. Duno I reli stupid ttm or wat sia! haix.. wat a 失败人生 sia.. dumb!! no brain!! regardless of my personal life, my family, my friends, my love life n even at work!!!

to my parents, I'm like a money tree! to my relatives, I'm like a dumb ass.. just a stupid ugly kid nt wanted by any1.. to sum of my frens, mayb I'm oso like shit to them.. mayb shit 都不如.. ok! or mayb I'm jz 自卑吧, hopefully!

jap summary~

2011-09-12T13:33:00.008+08:00

itz my 1st blogging aft post jap trip~ LOL.. hmm.. 1st.. xie xie von for accompanying me for breakfast on 27th.. much appreciated~ <3!!

27th: we went to the departure hall, bid goodbye to our frens and off we go to our gate.. abit sua gu tho, 1st time taking A380 ma.. we were supposed to be on e upper deck.. n we kuku go join the q at e main deck... dotz lo... upper deck no q de lo.. hahaha.. off we go... 7hrs in e plane.. we ate.. we watched movies.. n ta da~~ arrived..!! e 1st ting we did when we touched down- on iphone wireless.. hoping to tap to their wireless.. sian de.. limited wireless.. grrr~ den we lug our luggies, went to change n reserved our JR pass n shinkansen seats~aft tt search for our mercure hotel shuttle bus pickup plc.. went to get dinner (yaa.. we ate mac for dinner tt day).. den shuttle all e way bk to mercure.. wooots~ hotel rm super small.. din even noe whr e aircon switch is at.. dotz!! mayb due to lack of water.. new environment.. i shi mian le~~ n till i abt to slp den realised e aircon switch is jz nxt to me.. part of e alarm clock sia.. dotz!!! hahaha.. stuffy for sooo many hrs in e room~~

28th: woke up early in e morning... check out fr hotel cos we din noe whr our train stn were... n ya.. in e end.. itz reli jz 5mins walk.. v near... bobian lo.. settle dn for breakfast at mac again.. apparently, most of their brekkie like sold out la.. tis n tt oso dn hv.. dotz!! hahaha...aft breakfast.. we rushed to tk our narita express, onli to realised we missed it! in e end, we took boso express~ to tokyo (btw, while waiting for e train, thrs a jap obasan asking us if e train goes to tokyo.. we were like errr... bt mayb cos she obasan abit blur gua).. hahaha.. den off we go.. took shinkansen to shin osaka.. took e local train to osaka.. den waited for our shuttle~ reached hyatt hotel.. staff reli gd.. stayed in a reli big n nice hotel.. woohoo~ rushed to aquarium n then ringu factory outlet( tis ringu trip to n fro cost us $30/pax).. 1.5hrs each time~ insufficient time.. in e end rushed n din reli buy much.. yes!! totally forgot abt our dinner.. we drank a cup of bb tea(thru anyhw point n trying our luck)n so we bought cup noodles fr 1 of their convenience stores bk to hotel.. happy cos thrs free wireless~ woohoo~ watched xin bing lo.. aft tt slp...

29th: went USJ(crowded w ppl cos still sch hol, we din get to play much.. haix..) n den aft tt went isetan at osaka stn.. bought katsu dinner bk to hotel~ weee.. n yes... we wasted 500yen each cos we din tk e paid shuttle bus bk fr usj.. on top of tt we still went to tk local trains.. which cost us $$ la..

30th- checked out fr hyatt.. took shinkansen bk to tokyo... left our luggies in a locker... rushed to disneysea... still... crowded dao~ sianz.. so once again... we paid $110 to go in shopping... bought a few exclusive duffy n shelly bears... jz few of these bears cost me $200... wa... hahaha.. den went searching for keio hotel lo.. poor us.. cos itz raining.. haix.. we lugging our luggies everywhr.. den immediately aft putting our lugs in our room, we went to e convenience store dnstairs n spent like nearly $20 on food, drinks n ice cream.. n we used our wireless online again lo..

31st:on course till 3.. we went searching for taka (took us an hr lor) den din buy anyting.. n we walked bk.. waited for dinner(company treat) at a sky restaurant.. den went bk hotel slack le...

1st-yaya.. typhoon.. so we actually took 4 hrs by car to the factory.. n another 4hrs+ back.. so whole day spent in e car.. sianz.. bt abit rude.. cos we 2 totally concussed la.. damn bao qian to e driver.. oopz~ reached hotel abt 7 den she dn wana go out.. so we slacked in hotel lo..

2nd: hosp visit.. b4 tt we subway to isetan walk walk.. aft hosp visit, rushed to hello kitty sanrio puroland lo.. den went daiso walk walk.. aft tt travel bk.. went keio departmental store dabao dinner..slack in hotel again~

3rd: went gotemba factory outlet... bigger n more variety... bought lil stuff tho.. all ralph lauren tops for cousin, god daughter n god son.. ah teng n me too~ LOL.. aft tt went shibuya blue label( who noes tt day closed for private sales.. grrrr) den we went tokyu plaza n aft tt to agnes b shop(whr i bought a bag thr for nana.. itz a lot cheaper but if i were to buy for myself.. sure she bu de.. cos still nt cheap~ haix but she dn like la.. muahaha.. nt her style ma.. bobian la~

4th: went mt fuji but cant cant go mt fuji.. so stopped at hakone.. aft hakone, we went shibuya again.. to e blue label shop.. bt again, din buy anyting.. lol...aft tt forgot dinner den we ate maggi again.. lol

5th: went disneyland.. managed to play more games... hehe.. den saw mickey n friends as well.. aft tt bought sum stuffs fr thr as well.. hehe.. i wana go again~~ hahaha

6th: went tokyo tower... ate curry rice fr tokyo curry lab.. aft tt rushed to narita airport,bought tokyo banana etc thr.. had jap dinner thr n aft tt, ta da.. home at 3am... LOL..

end of summary~~ =D

sianz.. li li bie bie...

2011-07-05T00:42:00.002+08:00

ok.. 1 of my colleague's last day is on 5th july (tmr).. sadded.. it came as a surprise to me on a v slpy tue n like i will b working w her e whole of nxt wk den we wun mit anymore.. even on her last day.. shitz..! haix.. she bu de sia.. sianz... 1 person less le.. hope she will come bk sing wk lor! sad.. till nw still trying to tell myself she leaving, cos apparently she is 1 of my closest colleague le.. tk bus to n fro wk, go lunch n sumtimes dine out at nex etc tog, live near each other etc..

she is my no 2 cool cool fren.. lol.. jz like nana.. haha.. tho nana nt so cool nw.. heh heh.. bt i prefer present de na.. LOL.. anw.. hope tt all is fine for her, will remain hapi n find a job fast fast.. quite sad de lei.. no matter wat we hv alr developed frenship le ma.. shes my almost daily msg kaki lei.. gt wk tog or nt oso will msg.. oso duno wat we talking sia. haha..

been feelin rather emo recently.. duno y.. pms i guess.. nw preparing for jci audit.. aft audit gg jap str (hopefully dn gt major happenings).. LOL.. bt rather hapi cos hv been meeting my lovelie nana for many days.. hahaha.. jz enjoy meeting them.. enjoy their company.. even if it means doing nothing, n practically nothing. hahaha.. i reli hope we wun drift apart too far tho. jz like dar n me.. initially close.. den 1 mth meet few times... nw... dn even noe half a yr got meet 1x anot.. haiz..

anw.. hope all my loves will b healthy n happy oways.. lazy to blog le.. tas~

boring life me!

2011-06-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

hmm... on nite shift today.. supposedly got willah acc me de, cos gt a mrsa pt.. bt turned out pt condition worsened.. so cancel test.. n nw, here, im all alone..

anw.. ytd i was pondering... y m i oways so free.. kp gg to find my frens.. tink they all muz b tinking y m i so free la.. duno lei.. i feel so weird de.. on my free days jz wana go c my frens lor.. i may hv lotsa frens bt ppl whom is reli impt to me is onli like tt few.. LOL.. they muz b damn irritated to c me lor!! i tink.. lol.. gg suntec main purpose is to acc ah na.. jz dn wan her to feel so bored at wk, tho i guess i thr oso dn help ease her boredom la.. bt @ least im thr ma.. can da bao food for her, can listen to her stories, can wuliao wu liao w her la.. dn mind 2b at her svr anytime. tho to her mayb im nt even her fren. haha.. bt still, i wun mind! haha.. go hougang abit bored la.. cos nth to do seriously.. ah teng bz w her bb tea.. lol.. im onli blocking ppl's way nia.. hahaha.. bt promised to look for her when free.. ahh.. cant my life lighten up abit?? r tt e woes of a single? or it occurs to ppl who r attached as well?? or isit jz me?

na's bday over le.. i done a card n scrapbook for her.. scrapbook idea came when we were in shanghai at e notebook store when they bought many stuffs.. was tinking wana do sth special as a bday gift.. LOL.. went dhoby ghaut duno how many thousand times le.. made w luv, paper market to n fro.. went ion n orchard central bookstore as well.. den to raffles city papermarket n parkway scraperlicious.. i wud sae scrapbooking is nt sumting tt is ez to do.. esp to ppl like me.. lotsa materials to get.. lotsa research to do, lotsa ideas to generate.. idk if she likes them anot.. saying abt tt, it reminds me of e scrapbook dar done for me.. my roommate threw it away.. =( haix.. tt is 1 of my precious ting.. ahhh!! sad.. e scrappie ah.. i got many mini notes here n thr de.. bt on 2nd tots, i gave it up.. dn wana b so losoh.. haha..

idk y i gave e idea to ppl tt i wun reject anyting no matter wat my frens wan me to do.. but u all r wrong.. i onli will nt reject my lovelies n besties requests. cos i knew e rejected feeling.. bu hao shou ma.. i dn wan them to feel tt way.. as long within my means, i will do it de.. bt sumhw to them, it is a diff ting.. n tt sumhw mk me feel so... na men! cos they duno tt im doing it for them n them ONLY! many other stuffs oso.. i admit im nt a v sociable person.. as in.. my expressions r reli horrible.. i sumhw dn like to express too much out in front of ppl, even to those im close w de.. bt i wud express it in my msges.. LOL..

actu my intention is to celebrate na's bday sumday at sentosa de.. of course nt USS la, cos she oso dare nt tk many of e rides.. bt play e other stuffs in sentosa.. n prob stay a nite at hard rock hotel. den we can stay thr till late late no prob.. n eat cake cake.. long time nv eat bday cake le.. LOL.. wat a stupid excuse! bt 1st, i doubt she will b interested.. 2nd, tink she will scold me lor.. sae i waste $$.. 3rd.. onli we 3 person tink she will b bored to death la.. hahaha.. anw.. celebrate is cos i wan my lovelie to b hapi aft all e sad stuffs.. n 2nd, b4 she become v sian abt bday (aging signs) hehehe... jz play play lor.. hahaha.. 3rd is cos ah teng nv go sentosa too la.. haha.. heng no1 will c tis blog, if she happen to read tis ah.. tink she gona dots n diaoz n scold me lor!! hahaha.. i guess..

so u c.. my life reli surrounds my frens onli rite... omg!! tis is part of virgo traits ba.. n to sum, im jz purely wuliao ba.. haha.. to cont my blog another day.. losoh enuf le.. watch show time.. hahaha

jz for u nana

2011-01-25T02:10:00.000+08:00

itz been a long time since I last updated my bloggie.. spider web everywhere le.. actu I jz wana blog.. haix.. been feeling quite 'heavy' recently.. nana.. hope she's alright ya.. hope tt she will get over it asap.. =( haix.. my lovelie feeling so sad yet I can't do anyting.. tis is e worse ever feeling sia.. u noe.. moodless..

felt sooo redundant.. argh!! nana.. 不要那么不开心.. I noe saying tis is useless nw.. who wun feel sad.. I oso noe saying tis dn help to ease anyting.. still.. nana, I reli hope u will b bk to yr hapi self again..

everytime when ppl tell me tings, I felt so useless.. cos I'm reli reli v lousy in consoling ppl.. I reli Duno wat to say.. haix.. y m I so bad in doing all these? n cos I Duno hw to console, u noe, e 1st ting I wana do is to hug them.. gif them a big hug.. lend them my shoulder.. bt when face to face w them, I Duno hw to approach them.. v useless ba~ =( I'm sori nana.. I can't b of any help to u.. sobs..

I noe nana wun even read my blog, bt still, I wana say: nana, 你要加油喔！要坚强！但我不希望你逞强！在我面前你不要hide yr feelings ma.. dn oways mk me feel so redundant la.. I still got my ears, shoulders, eyes, emotions n mental to lend u de.. u wan borrow hw long oso no probx de.. 24/7 thr for u.. as long as u nit it!! my mouth abit stupid la.. haha.. bad at consoling.. in anw, u wan oso can borrow!! bt seriously, na, muz tk gd care of yrself~ rest well~ =* haix.. =(

from: useless junie =(

life @ ktph...

2010-08-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

now beginning to wk day n nite shift... my body clock go haywire sia.. but gd ting im able to adapt fast.. cos i can slp late or wk up early.. tho v tired la.. hehe.. den nw i quite like measuring head le.. tho sumtimes abit e blur, i still like e overall lo.. everytime aft a head is done, i will feel a sense of accomplishment.. heex..

then i hv a duper good senior whose name is meiling.. v v nice person.. heex.. bt im nt under her la.. onli learnt EEG fr her.. hehe.. =) shes my 'baby' for nw.. muahaha... she gt 3 duper cute children.. like her 2nd daughter a lot.. sooo cute.. heex.. shes 5 tis yr.. hehe..

another colleague is jacey.. tt one ahh.. face look so fierce... oways abuse me de.. hahaha... bt ok la.. oso v nice person... came in a mth earlier than me.. bt much younger than me.. =( lol...sui ye bu liu ren ahh~~ so excited.. coming week gona wk nite w her liao...

den oso gt my ah tao n another philippine colleague.. they both oso ok la... nt bad... hahaha... hmm... this coming mon gt another new girl joining us le.. bt she will b my baby's girl.. heheehe... wonder hw she look like sia.. so exciting.. =D bt i wun gt to c her until nxt nxt wk... haiyo... sooo long... ahhaha... =)

bt tis hos v enthu sia.. muz go run n jog to kp fit, muz hv book reviews... staffs muz go present.. i tot in workin world esp my tis kinda job dn nit to present le.. who noes???!!!! ahahahaha...dn ask me present i do cow do horse oso can la.. hahaha... end of yr still gt fitness test.. i tot poly will end tis napfa test... who noes... hahaha.. rubber band, attire etc feel like im still in sch sia.. lol.. In terms of pay, im quite contented la.. cos pay adjustment etc.. so yep yep... pay much much better than previous job de... even nite shift allowance oso went up... nt bad uhh~~ hehehe...

eend of intro part 1 ba... nw gona go do analysing liao... nitex da jia~~ =)

emotional 1st mth...

2010-07-11T15:11:00.002+08:00

recently got a new job.. idk wat to feel.. just felt soooo lost thr... duno is cos im still new thr or wat...like sooo alienated... deep inside, i felt reli unhappy n lonely... bt come to tink abt it, if hospi nv hire me, n im still at wintertime, still sian cos most prob im still at MBS... aiya... duno la... probably is lidat ba... tis is work life... the onli ting left is the ppl thr... i felt sooo happy seeing them... c my 2-3 loveloves thr... felt overjoyed.. esp when thrs sth for me to look fwd to aft wk.. for nw, still ok la.. bt once peak period, they wud b sooo bz... den i oso cant go find them like now.. sumtimes i gt the idea of secretly workin thr during peak period... mayb cos i used to bz bz.. mayb jz wana wk tog w them again... mayb jz nt used to the overly free life.. i hated the lonely empty feeling.. reli dreaded it.. bt wat can i do?? can onli go find frens to relieve tt feel.. sooo miserable rite... like sooo despo to hv that feel being filled up..doubt many hv tt same kinda feel as i does.. cos they r all surrounded by ppl.. by besties, bf or gf, relatives, siblings or family.. haix...emo emo...

tink e lonely me gona celebrate my lonely bday alone tis yr... mayb i shld nt tk leave on tt day... cos i dn wana go round begging ppl to acc me go out etc.. aiya... still long... shall c hw la... hahaha..

last bt nt least, i hope tt my lovelies will oways b happy, xing fu, healthy n well... i noe all of them seldom or nv come my bloggie de... bt still... i jz wana sae i will be avail for all of u 24/7.. if u nit my companionship, nit any help... feel free to approach me k.. i dn mind being e spare tyre.. like when u all cant find any1, can find me k... even if in future i hv my own fam(hopefully i will have la), u all will still be my precious de loveloves... muackz... =D

reflection n happenings for e mth of may... lol

2010-05-21T22:21:00.003+08:00

recently aft wk ar...i c tis auntie... she used her own $$ to buy lotsa meow meow food n feed the meows dnstair... hmm... tis auntie soo kind sia... i dn tink i will lidat one lor... aiyo... everyday w/o fail sia... n u will c her walk here n thr finding n feeding cats.. tt was aft wk at abt 1145+... den today ahhh...i came hm abt 8+ den i saw her feeding a kitten wor... wa... den is 1 pack of food.. so nice of her sia... hahaha... in tis world oso gt sucha nice person... hehe

anw... my nanny is back hm aft few days of hospitalisation.. heng ahh... onli acute cystitis, gross hematuria n UTI... shes bk bt she still nit to hv e catheter on her to monitor her urine... bt sooo clear le... no longer e bloody urine..so happy...n she look healthier le...

recently worked at MBS... is reli v SIAN one lor... no ppl... long hrs(tho hrs e same as other outlets, onli tt gt shift) den soooo far away fr teng n nana... walao.. boring dao~~ miss them dao~~then no music... damn boring.. sum more e shift sucks... esp e nite shift... sian... until 11pm.. lethargic sia... den worse is when u conseq 3 days wk fr 1230-11,den e nxt 3 conseq days is wk fr 10-830.. v v tiring lor!!! off day onli 1 wk once.. worse.. onli gt insects accompany u... v v bad backache...v slpy n tired... haix.... den limited transportation... so sian...

bt itz ok... cos my last day is on 25th... HAHA... aft tt gona go wk at a hospital le.... bt for e time being, still hafta start trainin at AH man... hopefully i can excel in tt job... hahaha... bt i will definitely mis teng they all de... =( pls do kp in contact ok... i dn wan like drifting apart... cos i tink itz happening btn all my frens... in sec, lost contact w pri frens.. in poly, lose contact w sec frens.. nw wkg, lose contact w poly frens.. mayb shld sae rarely... even w ah dar oso.. haix.. i noe we all bz, bt i hp we all wud be able to mit at least once a mth or sth... pls pls... hahahas....

2010-05-11T11:52:00.000+08:00

muahaha..ytd went to sign my contract w a hospital.. so hapi n so sad..hapi cos I gt a job w higher pay n more relevant w my course of studies...(tho nt v relevant) hehe..sad cos I gona miss ah teng they all..afterall,I witnessed my 'son' birth till nw..tog w his 2 main mummies.. gg to another plc to witness e birth of another son..wahaha.. n e worst ting of all is tt I can't even wk in sc for my remaining days~ haix.. sianz :-(

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my ren sheng da shi...lol

2010-04-03T00:23:00.002+08:00

recently kp niaming abt work... then today we were complaining abt long wking hrs, low pay n benefits.. hehe... den aiyo...i sudd realise hor..im reli wasting my time n youth sia... lol.. low pay... no social life... den die liao.. wait cant marry out how?? hahaha... start to worry.. heex... tink hor.. muz go find a matchmaking centre liao... lol.. go find a cheaper one..lol.. e person gd jiu hao le.. muahahaha.. n gt enuf $$ to yang me.. wahahahaha... scary lei..im so old liao...yet... yet... aiyo... hw man?

post fr yr auntie junie... lol

2010-03-31T00:57:00.003+08:00

hmm...wa...困难一直冲着你来，但放心啦~一切一定会顺顺利利的！我会一直帮你祈祷祈祷祈祷着的，最爱的朋友！哈哈... don't worry la... dn kp tinking of e unhappy stuff...wateva u hv,jz enjoy.... dn brood on it ya..?? cos brooding on it will dampen yr mood nia.. =) hmm...in e meantime, pls do tk gd care ya... dn let yr flu bring u dn... slp n rest early n more... den will fast fast recover... den can enjoy yr trip lotsa ma rite... can look 4ward to big big bb tea, nice food, nice shoppings n sceneries, nice SHOWs, n nt forgetting, getting lotsa nice stuff for junie la~ wahahaha.. =p hmm... ehh... kuku ''妹妹''ar...dn b kuku kuku ar~cos e kuku title onli belongs to junie ar... waahahaha... muz b happy n cheerful ar... lidat mood better, den everyting will be better as well ar... good tings will definitely come to u ya..!! heex... if gt chance, mit me at dreamz.com cos thr gt me ar... whr u can throw all yr angrys, unhappys, bad lucks, and claim all yr harpi, cheers, good lucks and 顺利fr thr de.. n ohya... rem to throw all yr germs thr as well ar.. kp yrself healthy ohh~ drink more water, even when yr thr ar..知道吗？要听阿姨junie的肺腑之言哦！！！ huggies!! =) tink tis abandoned bloggie wun b seen, bt still, 希望u will ‘收到' 哦!! hehehe...

Hopes

2010-03-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

I hope tt nana stuff will b smooth n nicee.. Everyting will move to e bright side.. N tt everyting will b ok for her.. Hehe.. Jz let all e suay ting happen to me la..since I'm alr so suay... Lol... It doesn't matter more or less.. Best is suay until my life can b taken, cos I dn hv hope n will to live on further..take my life by all means, bt on a request tt all their suay bad tings fall on me n all e gd tings happen to nana,dar n all my other besties la... :-D pls let my tis hope come true~

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sad....

2010-03-03T00:32:00.003+08:00

i reli duno wat to do?reli am at a loss... i wana save up to settle my debts... i wana save up to pay all my debts... sumtimes these r driving me crazy... my allowances debts,exam fees etc... secondary sch debts... even c doc oso nit to borrow fr others... den it amts up to a lump sum.. previously sae will help me pay them bk.. cos afterall tis kinda tings is parents pay de.. bt they pi gu sao sao left a sum here.. den over thr, cos they refused to pay for my spects, nanny niece lent me $ to buy them...den misc stuffs oso nanny niece pay for me.. all in my lower secondary years.. den wat happen? im left to pay another sum here... nvm.. they initially scolded me.. refused to let me study poly... cos SHE she bu de spend her $$ on me...i tried n find ways to pay sch fees.. in e end came to noe CPF can pay..in future den pay bk... nw i hv another sum to pay.. den come to gg aussie study... borrowed fr eddie kor a lump sum of $$ to study... dad sister oso lent us... these sum of $$ my dad sae will settle w me...share e load.. wat crap...!!! they borrow n borrow fr everywhr.... den wat hv they done?? they pi gu sao sao den jz drop e whole lump sum of $$ owed on me.. den i hv to pay.. do any of yr noe tt jz tinkg of e sum i hafta pay reli stressed me???

den came a dad who kp tinkg unrealisticly... stock n stock..forex n forex.... bt whr is e money?? dn u tink tt wkg is more realistic den idling at hm??? den came a mum hu is sucha gambler...so addicted to gambling... both of them instead of helping me tink of ways to clear my debts,they actu increase my debts..WT..!!! borrowed fr here n thr... n even borrowed sooooo much fr me!!! im reli reli scare they will be like last time, pi gu sao sao jiu zou... den im reli dead...

tinkg of e debts i hv alr made me soooo depressed... having sucha money grubber parents made me more depressed... i feel sooo xin ku... i feel so beng kui... i feel so tired... i dn wana b soo debt-ridden... n do u noe e stress my fam is giving me?? my aunt n uncle kp telling me abt e $$ my parents owed them... u noe... im all alone... when i feel so pc tt time,who can i tell?? cant tell any1.. everytime when i tink of e $,i reli get v v depressed.. i wud cry...

when im soo upset, i reli gt e impulsiveness to kill myself... jump off a building, poison myself, cut myself or let myself b knocked dn.. bt... i realised im a coward... serious... when i imagine i wana jump, i dn tink i hv e courage to do sooo... omg!!! sooo qiao bu qi wo zi ji sia!!

haix... how?? i feel soooo alone... wana find sum1 to talk to, bt i duno wat to sae.. bt i hate being alone...cos alone e stress is more...e stress is thr... sooo stressful... bt no matter hw, i feel soo alone... im oways trying to let all nt feel alone yet im oways being left alone in e end... =( emoooo... tell u... i reli hated tis kinda feeling... i can be alone bt i dn wana be alone.... i oways envy ppl who is nt alone... they oways at least hv sum1 to b w them.. bt i dn... i dread being alone..bt im oways being left alone in e end... ='( hope tis feel will go off asap......

felt better writing it out.... heex.... felt bettter aft crying... felt happier cos nana called me... heex.. gan dong gan dong... bt when i wana sae sth, tears welled my eyes.. den in e end i dn wana sae anyting... wahaha.. bt im reli hapi for nana's care... thanks nana... muackz!! =) n thks sheryl jiejie for yr concern... hmm...thks my dardar too!! =)

lastly,i wana go holiday!!!managed to ask von go during May bt nw no promo... hw sia??? =(

Sad n sian

2010-03-01T22:23:00.001+08:00

Haix..so upsetting..dn understand y I hv such parents...kp borrowin fr me..worse of all,e Amt kp increasing...n hv nv tot of returning...wat the ****!!! I hated using vulgarities..bt nw I reli feel like using!!damn!!irritating!!!I hate them I hate them I hate them!!!!!!!!!!! =(

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2010-02-08T01:39:00.002+08:00

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2010-02-03T01:38:00.002+08:00

hmm..i duno isit cos im a virgo,den virgo tends to treat ppl call 'friends' so impt until sumtimes others may tink im in luv w them..bt im nt!!i may appear to b soooo gd to u all,bt i definitely dn hv e wai thots..nt at all!!!i oso duno isit jz me being sensitive or wat la... i hv learnt to become more appreciative cos i noe ppl nit lotsa appreciations fr frens n fam.. i dn hv those,so i wana gif those.. bt sumtimes im so scare tt being lidat may caused me to lose frens... i dn hv a hapi family,bt i reli hope to hv at least gd frens... hmmm....

i simply love being gd to my close frens...being v v gd... like wateva u wan,if within my means, i will get it for u...like when i c u nit tis,bt u nv sae u nit,i will still wan to get it for u... these actions to sum may tink tt tis kinda tings is onli done by lover.. yes!!i luv my frens...so much tt in e past,i fang qi ai qing cos of a classmate..so much until my mum whack me till i bleed cos of them..

initially dar mentioned tt she dn believe im sooo gd to her for no reason...im sure she believed i hv ulterior motives..hahahaha...bt i tink tt im one who is determined to do my v v v best for ppl whom i tink is worth being my close frens...

when i heard tt tis sum1 is 1 hu is oways being left out,even when they hv bffs, i jz wana teng e person sooo much...i wan them to noe tt dn wori,even if yr bffs nv zhong shi u,i will zhong shi u a lot de..so i wana gif all e tengs i hv to them n let them feel loved...even if they dn treat me as close frens...or as frens..i dn mind... i did all this cos i wan them to be v hapi,i dn wan them to feel like hw i feel in e past.. so alone...when i c wat my bffs nit,i will try get for them..when i noe wat my bffs love to eat,i will gt tt for them...n i will oways care for them...i wan them to feel loved.. bt sumtimes i admit i abit too naggy..lol...

when i noe wat my bffs wan,i reli wana gt those stuffs for them..bt in e end i wun gt,cos they will scold me stupid n stuff,or they will sae tt onli ai ren will do tis kinda tings..bt i hope tt no matter wat i do,they will nv tink tt i treat them well cos im in luv w them..cos tis is sth i HATE... perhaps cos u all r nt me,so u will nv noe hw much i zhong shi my frens...

u noe,in all e frens i zhong shi b4,or even zhong shi nw de,onli dardar is e one who noes me well... den when im pc and dn bother abt her tt much,she is affected by me nt bothering her...at least she cares when i ignore her.. among my frens,onli tt sha gua will tink tis way..sum cant be bothered.. or mayb cos they took my love,teng n care for them for granted.. or mayb is jz tt im too sensitive..

bt recently i felt tt i cud nt fit into any of my fren de picture...like im nt inclusive in their life... i feel so alone... so scary...reli hope one day sum1 will let me in... hahahahaha... hmmm... *sigh*

san ge yuan wang

2009-12-24T02:43:00.003+08:00

i simply love tis song...hehehe...

三个愿望
by liang wen yin

你开始会计划未来了
那恋人正拿我看心灵的存折
像火星的脾气少很多
很忙也会记得抽空练完

你做的事我都看见了
所以抱你你的时候眼里红红的
就算你有时候会犯错
怎么想都在不开心什么

你答应送我三个愿望
第一个希望你能健康开朗
第二个希望我能更懂体谅
第三个希望我们永远有话讲

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

因为很爱所以会想通
不再去坚持己见让彼此难过
当感情很稳定很浓厚
退让也会有种甜蜜感受

你答应送我三个愿望
第一个希望你能健康开朗
第二个希望我能更懂体谅
第三个希望我们永远有话讲

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

感谢我们的爱情没有翅膀
一步步走在往幸福的路上
再用足够时间好好欣赏
让开心春夏秋冬四季的风光

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

angry angry!!curse tt thief!!!

2009-11-18T00:18:00.003+08:00

haix...recently so suay....my hp kena stolen sia...itz my dad's hp actually...hmm...muz go find n buy bk the hp..gt any lobang??Nokia N95 8gb de??reli reli hated the person who stolen the hp.... idiot!!!when i tot tt i muz wk w a thief(w/o knowing hu),damn down lor... reli hor... haix.. seriously muz curse tt whoeva... i mean... stealing... whoeva u r, hw old r u le?? walao.. the more i tink abt it,the angrier i become... hated the person who stole the hp,nt onli cos she/he stole the hp, bt oso caused my ah tao jie feel bad.... it made me double+triple hate tt person... ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!!!

anw..i reli kai bu liao kou tell my parents the hp being stolen...hw sia?? hmm..... reli hor... haix...damn sian,damn sad,damn down..if itz my own hp at least the feeling nt tt bad...bt.. wa..duno hw man...cos the hp model in normal singtel,nokia shop no more le...hafta go 2nd hand shop look c... hmm.. suan le...dn dread on it....hmmm... gona go orh orh niao... hahaha...

saddie....

2009-11-09T18:14:00.003+08:00

wow...recently wk until blur blur sia...as in,duno lei...easily get irritable,n v v tired,even if 2 days ago i jz had my off... hmm..den abit dread gg to wk...bt i mean,still ok la...nt v serious la...tink every1 oso same same ba...hehe... hmm... still feeling very lost everyday... go bk hm mk me feel unhapi n stress...go bk to my own hm mk me feel so upsetting...jz so down... jz feel so unwanted n left out everywhr i go... soso alone... so so dn hv the being care n loved feeling..wonder y i wud feel tis way sia... bt sumtimes once i felt alil loved or care,den im sooo hapi.. tink thrs sumting wrong w me..!!hw sia??

i mean, altho i can be alone, i jz cant tolerate the kinda 'alone' feeling.. n it seems to get worse as days goes by... can sum1 help me?? feel rather depressed bt thrs no1 to turn to... memory like decelerating at a very fast speed...den very uneasy everywhr...wana find ppl to jz let out bt duno who to... den abit onli i wana cry liao...haix..so sicked of myself..!!y m i so problematic??

hmm...dn tok bt unhapi stuff le...hahaha... hmm... recently im soo sooo hungry for teng teng wor...hahaha...anw... my off day flu is here again... haiyo...4eva lidat de... hahahaha... boring boring ar...nth to diary abt...hahahaha... fine...go play games le....tata....!!hahaha

enjoyed myself @ nana's plc... n craps....lol

2009-10-19T20:35:00.002+08:00

hahaha...c gt wat happenings... eh.... wa...jz happened to weigh myself and ta da... i hv lost another 2kg fr the last time(15 sept) woah....c...the results of hving a supervisor who oways bully me de...ke lian rite... hehehe... bleah~~hahaha.. just joking..

recently @ wk startin to feel so lethargic...so tired...look @ the storeroom nia so sian...hahahaha.. so small space....so many tings... hahaha... anw...2 days back aft wk went nana's hse n stayover... hehehe... b4 tt went to watch movie la.... mayb cos scare i cant wk up or wat,den i cant slp much... hahaha... probably if the following day is a off day,den i will slp more in peace.. hoho.. bt i enjoyed myself la~ heex.. happy happy~~~

hmm..received my posb bill... wooo... saw partyworld bill...so miss gg to sing sing sing.... hahahaha...simply love gg out... haahaha... tmr gg to isetan to c the japan fair b4 mitting ah dar aft her wk... lol.... nw im rotting @ hm nia... sooo boring.... my poor thumb sooo pain...bt the swell went down abit...haahha...tts all for nw la~~heehehe..

crap 1

2009-10-01T23:28:00.004+08:00

hmm... end of my lame story....itz a story....so abit kua zhang...bt the main ting reli happen... wahahahaha....as in...the STARE..~~wahaha

okok...lets crap ard... bt duno hw to start... hahaha... hmm...i wana sae..my nana dn like me.... =( bully me... break oso muz force me to go aft her (wahaha..itz a lie) eh....oways abuse me physically...(wahaha..actually is mentally n emotionally) WAHAHAHAHA...nola....actually is jz the 3 add tog....lol...(another lie)most impt of all,she gave ppl 6 days off,n onli gave me 4...u c u c..!!!isn't tt being bias???cos she dn like me.... to tink i tot shes sooo gd to me...wahahaha...so lame~ nola... jz a joke...hw can it be??my nana sooo luv me(tts my tinkg...wahahaha..nt mentioned by her)....soooo i oso sooo luv her la~~jz like hw i luv my dardar n all la~ hehehe...BLA~~ jz rubbishing ard.. hehehehe...

wa..reli getting older le...jz these recent mths.... many of my close frens,or ex-colleagues or secondary frens,all engaged or married liao...kaoz...tis is sooo sad...hahaha..im stillllll single... wahaha...OMG!!!haha..die la..will i be like left on the shelf?? lol... wait expires jiu cham le..i still wan to hv my own fam de... LOL...wat a lamey ting...

i miss my gan ma etc...hmmm.....so funi...shes onli 5 yrs older than me n shes my mummy??!! hehe..i dn even rem hw come i became her god-daughter sia...hehehe...bt tt was like many yrs le...she sosososo teng me..hehe..@ 1st abit shy shy,den aft tt xi guan liao...kp on 'mummy front,mummy back..' hehe.. shes the 1st person to reli reli teng me n care for me de..my studies n everyting...reli act like my mummy.. hehe..last yr she came wintertime looked for me lei..so harpi...bt onli for tt 1 hr.. =( haha..aft tt she went to brisbane le...we nw onli talked in msn.. i gt a ah dardar...jiemeiz.... heh.... den i gt darlings,dears n baobeis...ohoh.. i gt a ah jie as well..shes my senior...i oso dn rem hw she became my da jie..4 yrs older than me..!!bt short term de la.. onli occasional msg or msn each other..

actually i hv oways wanted to hv jiejies to teng me,or even meimeis for me to teng... sae is sae la..bt if reli hv,mayb itz diff le.. hahaha...bt cos i dn hv,so if i sudd hv 1,i wud reli treasure a lot...hehehe...aiya...since fated dn hv,den oso bo bian la~haha..bt i hope to hv jiejie... hehehe... so childish rite...bt reli lor... i hp to hv lotsa teng teng... tt kinda jiejiely love...hahaha... i c my frens hv den like soo xingfu lidat...i oso wan...hahaha...dar,y nt u upgrade la..become my jiejie,instead of my mei??can??hehehe...bleah~~

crap a lot sia...hmm...recently nana unwell...muz tk care ya.. =) wa...ytd i was like sudd gona die lidat....sooo uncomfy...den today half half....lata in the day begun to feel uncomfy liao...bt still can dong la~hahaha...boring sia...gona orh orh liao..nitez...

short story 1...

2009-10-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

junie's short story 1...

title:tales of the staring incident~~ HA HA.. tts sooo lame...
actresses: junie,whitie (i tink is a zha bo..).... HA HA

one fine day,morning,junie went to wk...den aft wk junie took a bus and came home....(tts obvious...) ok...tis is how the story goes...probably a wk ago,my hse the lift under upgrading.. sooo...hafta walk to the other lift to tk the lift la...so itz a lil further fr the bs as usual... actually tis is jz to mk the story longer... WAHHAHAHA... so... eva since tt lift was thr...i,or i shld sae,my nanny daughter n i began to notice tis white cat(which i named it whitie)...this cat eva frighten nanny daughter...n it looked fiercely at her...bt din attack her la~wahaha...den whitie very enjoy life one...oways lying on the platform sunbathing,if nt observing ppl... hahaha... (okok..bk to my story...) sooo,today,tis whitie n me walked the opposite direction.. as in whitie walkin towards me,n i, towards whitie..fr abt a 100m away,we started to STARE at each other..as we walked..we stared...den we stare n stare n stare....hahaha...den at the pt we 'cha jian er guo...',n even walked past each other,we were still staring at each other...den the further we walked,the more we stare..then... .....whitie stopped...it's head turned firmly n staring at me...woooo....sooo fierce.. bt i continued to stare at it...all the way until i was near the lift den i said.... bye-bye....ignore it n continue my walk to the lift... ahhahaha...soooo...isit a nice story?? WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.... lame..~~

sooooo nth to blog part 1...wahahaha

2009-09-28T01:44:00.002+08:00

hmm...let me c...got wat to update lei???hahaha...ok... eh... tt day walked past many children boutiques n saw many many pretty dresses...got the itch to buy gif my darling hannah wear...bt hor..come to tink abt it,hannah wear dress looks abit weird..cos shes nt very girly..er...jz like me..im definitely cmi in dresses..hahaha...tho i oways wana try wearing 1..bt...the tot of it....eeee.. wahahaha...anw...so funi...like...sum ppl wear dresses n dressed up girlily wud look so swt n pretty,yet sum look weird..mayb cos i oways c hannah in pants tts y i feel weird..or shld i sae,all my zha bo cousins like dn wear dress de..waahahaha..my mum side de.. genie,rachel,jolene,hannah,me...we r seldom seen in dresses...except sch uni..wahahaha..

eh..ever since duno when,i duno y i began to stink...like....duno lei..bt when i asked my nanny,they sae dn hv ar...haha... im like...even aft shower i still smell...haha..den my nanny daughter sae itz my own tinking...reli meh??oh no..im suffering fr sum psychological prob liao?? haha..leading to me tinkg i stink,or reli i stink??haha..felt v embarrassed lor..hahaha

i oways felt so out of plc...so xtra...so hmm....lost...so left out....hahaha...duno hw to describe sia.. n im so so scare...so so no security...jz like i fell fr sumwhr high above tt feel...or being chased by dinos w no1 saving me kinda ting..wahaha..these 2 days i jz wana hide myself up in a hole n dn come out..nt reli emo la..mayb tryin to tao bi..bt duno wat...jz dn wan ppl to c me in my lousy self i guess..wahahaha...

anw..received bday prezzies fr my colleagues...so harpi...so po fei...aiyo....bt gan dong la~~thankies... lol...then i oso gt a GV buy 1 get 1 tix..until end of tis mth..bt dn tink i can use le la! =( nt much time left anw... hahaha... i had many bday wishes mentioned in an application..hope all come true..if nt...at least let the 1st few come true...hahaha...wat else...the suan ming uncle nt accurate...cos my bday is alr over n my mr right still nt found..??!!! =( how??hahaha

sooo wordy le ar...hmm...then i cont tmr ba...cos sum1 here sae her hse gg to hv a big explosion liao...wahahahhaa...*pray tt all will be gd for my jiejie* hehe..nitenite

my bday....weeee~~hahahaha....

2009-09-18T18:17:00.003+08:00

woooo...4 off days.....wat hv i been doin??hahaha....jz lidat n itz gone???!!!!!!hahahaha.... hmm...

14th-worked half day...den aft tt went chinatown with nana..cos she oso claim hr...haha.. den gan dong la...~cos wana get mini bday cake gimme...heex...tian zai xin li....LOL....

15th-my actual bday....dar took half day leave....den we went to orchard central...walked awhile den went to paragon eat sushi tei...brendan came aft tt,den last min decided to go watch movie-G-force....itz soooo cute....hhahaha....aft tt met von then went swensen eat...guanhe came along later on...heex...of course in btn gt lotsa kuku funny tings happening la....cos i hv kuku dar ma...n kuku frens...heex...i had fun tt day too...hapi hapi...!!heex... =)

16th-stayed at hm whole day...rest whole day to prepare for 17th...heex...

17th-went out with nana...hmm...went woodlands de party world...sing sing sing...hahaha...i sing like shit....hahaha....hmm....nana sing soooo niceeee.....hahaha...aft tt went kuishin-bo eat...lol... so bu hao yi si...let her spend so much....hahaha...den walk ard jp lo...haha... hmm...actually seems nth much rite....bt duno lei....i reli had lotsa fun n reli happy...heex...enjoyed myself...soo sooo sooooo sooo hapi...aiyo....gladie...~~

hmm..tis yr my bday seems nicee...seems gd~sumtimes itz nt whr u go tt u enjoy yrself,is the ppl u r with...hahaha....wa...recently duno isit cos i nt enuf slp or wat,i tend to let tings slipped off my mind...sadded!!my memory deteriorating liao...how?? =( hahaha....oh no..am having flu nw~~ hahaha...so random...dotz...

99 yrs old ah ma passed away le...do rest in peace..

2009-09-10T00:11:00.005+08:00

hmm...all along i tot i dn feel sad...bt when i went to the wake jz nw,i felt abit of she bu de...n sad... i cant even get to c her 1 last time...i tot i cud peek thru the coffin...bt...it was covered...it was reli a regret...y do i oways hafta wait tings to happen le den i regret?why did i kp procrastinating?? itz like so sudden...the other time with my ah ma oso...haix... i tot of the times when i was young,she took care of me...i like gg dnstair to her hse....she wud gimme swts...on shows let me watch...kp pouring orange soft drink gimme drink...suddenly i so miss her... ah ma, u muz rest in peace k......i will oways rem u.... =(

anw...went to the wake...den wa...every1 knew me...bt i duno majority of them la....den all like... 'wa....y u slim dn soo much??' or wa....'u looked darker...' or...'so long nv cya le.....grow so big n tall le ar....??'wahahahaha....so funi....

today whole day wana roar...ROAR~wahahahaha..... den so moody moody...no mood sia....hmmm... wana slp le....ahhahaha...random~ i muz learn to treasure every1... hehehe... =)

randoming ard...

2009-08-31T23:08:00.004+08:00

tt day went mum mum with nana @ swensen...hahaha...hmm...tt nite sooooo fun....sooooo funi.... soooo hapi......cos she lame lame de....then ahhh....we r sitting in front of each other,bt we talk to each other thru FB la~she dn wana hear wat i sae de...so bo bian~~the onli time when she 'listens' to me is onli when i talk abt her gan ma...hehehe...bt i oso duno y tt day like so fun...hahaha....hmmm...nana cham le...she gt the same ear prob as me le.....oh no...!!!hehehehehe...bt im sooooo hapi to hv nana as my fren....hahahaha....so random....lol

hmmm....another day went out with dar for dinner.....went creation eat.....hmm...nana intro de....quite nice....nt bad....den dar n brendan gave me a watch for my bday....wow...!!!so hapi...hahaha....then dar sae im her lucky star cos go out with me nia she managed to find all her ting...hahaha...

hmm...sometimes i find why isit so hard to hv my freedom of talking??was it jz me who does nt wan conflict or wat???am i nt a human??y cant i use the word tired ne??or dn i hv the right to sae im tired??y others can sae tt except me??am i nt wkg?or wat?very funny lei...haix....dn i hv the rite to be unhapi?cant i be unhapi??weird lei...every1 hv their own prob de ar....itz nt wat u tink nia ar....i hv so many other stuffs tt none of u noe de ar....so who r u to sae i dn hv the rights??itz my choice ma....

haha...itz time to change my lappie liao...cos my down arrow spoil le....space bar sumtimes oso sotsot....computer oso problematic at times....slow running....haix.... lol....recently received afew vouchers fr diff plc....then oso receive those complimentary treats or wateva fr diff companies...lol...

recently kp watchin nana's gan ma show...eh....dn hv the show liao den guai guai de....muz hv at least 1 show if nt i feel funi....die la~~tink i gona get poisoned le....cham le~~hahaha....aiyo...randoming ard....hahaha....anw....made a new spec liao....hmmm....so nw den i gt my astig degree....my right ear tt one is 400...left one nth much...the person sae dn nit much notice for the left one...diaoz...so i din noe my degree for my left...hahaha....nth much liao....end of my randoming...~~~hehehe

so swt nana....

2009-08-22T22:55:00.004+08:00

hahahaha...nth la~jz update update lor...hmm...so 感动!!!cos nana sae wana celebrate my bday w me wor...wahahaha....so happy la~~so swt of her!!haha...gt ppl wana celebrate my bday lei...hahaha...on the 17th...hehehe... yay...!!!!!so 期待!!!den i shy shy den i anyhow talk lor...WAHAHAHHA...diaoz...!!haha... anw...she recently trying to poison me with her gan ma lor!!!hahaha...

anw..i wana watch final destination..!!!since the start to tis part 4,all im a loyal fan!!hahaha... im saddist rite...hahaha....hmm...tis IT show...dn even hv tt $$ to buy the laptop...haix...damn sad...then my mp4 n 5 all spoil...everyday listenin to hp songs...den wait one of these days my hp sure gonez...!!!hahahaha

hmm...recently,been feeling down,down n DOWN sia....unexplanable DOWN!!mayb cos im wking with all the DOWN jackets...tts y so down...hahaha..lame~~recently,i resort to......i reli feel better lei..perhaps cos i reli hated myself a lot a lot,or mayb itz jz a relieve...duno...hehehehe...

today cos of swt nana,n lame ting,den my day nt so bad...hahahaha...very random la~~update another time,cos nw gona go poison myself with nana's gan ma show liao..hehe...tata

suffocated....hahaha

2009-08-11T23:09:00.002+08:00

suffocated sia...im having super difficulty in breathing everytime i tink bt it...y cant u ppl gimme sum breathing space....cant u leave me alone ma??can jz leave me alone for a mth or 2??pls....!!! tk it tt i plead with u ppl...................leave me alone....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16 more days....

2009-07-25T00:26:00.002+08:00

today nana go taiwan niao..embark on her 11 days trip...hehehe....bt tingting coming bk le...haaha... tmr!!!HOHOHOHO!!!hmm..kept myself so bz today tt time passed soooo quickly...haha...hw nice if everyday is jz like today...hehehe..today sales super bad de wor...at 9+ and itz still a disappointing figure...den suddenly,tis 2 customer came in....in total,bought 4 jackets...hehehe... soo hapi...finally get to hear the diff songs behind...nv hear b4 de...lol...worked till 10pm la...so tired....den stomach cramp...wa...itz killing me~~LOL...okla...nth much to blog lo...hmm... mayb i countdown to national day...heh heh....hmmm...... 16 more days....

LOL......hmmm.....my xiang si bing symptom 1 started liao....flu~~~lol... mayb will celebrate my sick anniversary aft nana's back...hahahaha....

bad habit.....

2009-07-14T01:50:00.002+08:00

today abit emoooo...hahaha...lame~~duno wat i talking la... anw...today ar....my arm gt tis tingling pain...wow...den i regret.... since young,i gt tis psychological problem...mayb cos im nt 1 who will reli vent my anger on other tings,mayb tis psychological ting in me happened since tt fateful day...i duno...or mayb cos i dislike myself at the very beginning... i told myself i must stop doin tis to myself,bt sumtime i jz cud nt control...i hafta do tis so tt i will feel relieved...den i will be bk to my normal hapi self..fr top to toe...aft doing,den i start regretting...itz like taking drugs... hahaha...wat an example..hmm...anw...tis ting has been gg on until i hv graduated fr poly... i rem once the ting was on my face..haix...cos i hated her!!i wanted to stop her fr doin wat she was doing...so i did it to myself...den aft tt,i stopped....recently again,aft all accumulation n stuff,i can barely tk it any longer...so i resort to tis again!!!why am i doing tis to myself?seriously...i muz tink of a way to curb tis habit...tis psychological problem....tis kinda way of venting out... wat can i do?im at a lost..

woah...!!sumting er xin happened to me ytd in the toilet...2 cockroaches landed in my pyjamas... ah fat n ah thin....i din noe den i wore my top..den sudd,sth dropped to my feet....the moment i looked,it was a cockroach(ah thin)...it jz crawl past my feet...then i was so scare...so at tt instance,i shook my top again den tis time round,ah fat dropped..!!wa...2 COCKROACHES IN MY TOP?????im so scare of cockroaches n yet they hv contact w my back skin n my feet?? er dao bao la~~walao...hahaha....

anw...nth much to sae la....jz super bored nw....hahaha...gona go slp liao...heh...hp everyting is fine n gd w all my goodie frens n fam!!hehehe

hoping for hugs.....

2009-07-12T00:05:00.002+08:00

hopes......hopes for a hug....fr any1....

ice age 3...

2009-07-09T22:27:00.004+08:00

hmmm....ytd so down la...cos i saw sum1 who look like... ...then i rem the hurt...then i felt reli emo....hmmm...

to my normal routine life...eh....today off sia...finally get to watch my ice age 3 in 3D..in the past i rem cartoon is watch w dar de...hahaha...nw my dear dar soooo bz...so hard to yue her...so bo bian lor....hahaha....then went seoul garden eat...yumz....bt itz oways said...tts oways sth to pay for aft a nice n enjoyable feast...hahaha....im havin stomach ache...so unwell nw...diarrhoea... walao...hw to go out tmr sia...shall rest then c hw tmr...haix...

hmm...jz wana sae...im reli reli very hapi working w 1 of my dearest fren...more than hapi to wk w her... heh...tho she oways nag nag scold scold sae sae me,still,i LOVE workin w her...hahaha...cos in a way,shes so funi n cute de...oways gt many funi happenings...so the loooong leave she gona tk ar...sure super miss her de...hahaha...mayb to her,im jz a colleague,a staff,bt to me,shes my gd fren..!!haha..piangz...sooo rou ma...diaoz....LOL...n i reli hope tt everyting goes well with Ting....everyting will be fine!!definitely!!!

being random for nw...tempted to get ipod touch,n a HP laptop...hahaha....aiya...i jz love gadgets...LOL...wonders wat hp my parents wana get..hmmm.....hehehehe...

ting to tell myself at the end of the day.....dn oways be unhapi....u muz look on the bright side of life...=)..... .....hopefully!!

wishes came true....

2009-07-03T00:28:00.003+08:00

piangz...recently abit emo...abit sian...abit upset...over.... ..... so many tings....haix...wonder why muz it happen tis way.wonder y ppl ard me lidat....wonder why im lidat...wonder n wonder... probably cos im too bored at wk then i start reflecting on myself...start wanting to change myself..change my bad self...i 4eva seems to nt reach my own expectations...am i reli tt bad n lousy?or am i jz expecting too much fr myself?*ponder*

am happy recently...cos each time i pray,it will happen tt way...i hv seen many tings turned out the way i wanted it to be since last time...it reli strengthened my belief..serious!!hahaha...then thr is tis ting tt i prayed for these 1 week or so...am glad tt it came true exactly wat i/sum1 wanted it to be la,tho at the same time,itz a down for me(only)...but still,overall,of course,still super hapi for tt 'someting' la...hp tt all turns well!!hehe.. =) *smilez*

hmm...down la...jz workin alone w himssss jz mk me wana scratch my face n pull my hair sia...WAHAHAHA...then im nt one who will vent out my anger unless i reached my limit la... then i oways gt the 'argh!!jz wana abuse n kill myself ' tt kinda feeling when tt person jz come talkin to me...haiyo...duno wat to sae....hahaha...then i hafta oways remind myself tt being nice to ppl is a blessing..haha...no1 is perfect..lidat then i feel better..!!hahaha..

done liao...gona go slp liao...cos tmr gona mk up stories to entertain myself...boring la...haix... sianz...how nice if i hv a remote control to press next...or jz fast forward my day a lil...haha.. aiya...jz let me fall sick tmr...den aft uncle come i go hm...hehehe...crappie me!!lol...tata

telling ppl hw u feel...n nana funi tings...LOL

2009-06-17T00:04:00.002+08:00

these 2 days been laughin n laughing....majority laughing at my dear nana....LOL....oways sooooo kuku,so cute,so funi,so lame,so blur n lastly,so FORGETFUL!!!!!hehehehe....hmm...then so sooo many coincidence stuff happening to her la~eg....sth to do with J...with joshua....n with number 7...hehehe....so funny!!

hmm...today talkin bt telling ppl hw u feel...!!hahaha

often the problem with us is nt tt we dn love tt person,is jz tt we dn sae it out....cos we feel so fake,so awkward and embarrassing to sae all this,n thus,we said nth...hahaha....then we start tellin ourselves 1 of these days we will tell them...bt sumtimes it is jz too late...

words r no substitute for action,and vice versa....certain tings nit to be told n shown...hahaha... sumtimes u do these stuffs n think tt yr fam n frens noes bt it,bt actually they dn....they aren't mind readers....jz as u stroke yr dog,yr loved ones nit to be stroked as well...praise them often,give them a pat on the back,hug them n tell them u love them...ppl can nv get enuf of that stuff..SERIOUS!!!hahaha..im sure tt we all want to be told often......

to ppl whom i care...tis is the ting i wana tell u all....*shy*

i'm hoping u all will read tis...im 1 of these ppl who duno hw to sae tings like i love u,i appreciate u,i care for u etc...n i guess tt i oways assume u know bt it and tt i dn hv to sae it..i find it abit weird,awkward n embarrassed to sae it,so i tend to avoid tellin u hw i feel...the truth is tt i love u all soooo much,n felt lucky to hv u all as my frens....mayb tis may b mushy n unexpected...bt tis is reli wat i wana tell u all fr the bottom of my heart...hehe...hmm....even tho i typed tis out fr my book,i reli meant wat i typed it here....serious...hahaha....i reli reli love,care n appreciate u all as my frens.... =) love ya all!!!

i feel so rou ma sia.....hahahaha....weird~lol

caring n listening..n im reli dying...hahahaha

2009-06-14T23:17:00.003+08:00

haix...today superly emo...vented my anger on my finance book!!!LOL....finance lei....crap la...hahaa...jz being random..hehe...hmm..wa...recently,tink i dying.....seriously...my chest area hurts...m stomach digestion super bad.....my back super suan n pain...my leg sum whr above ankle thr super pain...hafta ren ren ren!!!hahahaha...i mean ren the pain...den recently cos of $$ made me so unhapi...haix..pc show ended today then my beloved HP lappie pao tang le...!!sad!!

u noe wat....since tt time,i was so so so tempted to buy ipod touch...hahaha..bt then,i gt mp5 liao ma...so cant waste $$!!haha..bt i dn mind my aunt or parents gimme as bday prezzie...hahaha...bt tink too much la~~lol...hmm...basically,dn hafta waste tis kinda $$ de...hahaha....muz kp telling myself tt!!!hahaha...mp5 spoilt,den 'borrowed' fr hoon jie the mp4 oso spoil..walao...hahaha!!!den 1 hafta go kampong ampat,another hafta go jurong tt business park thr...diaoz...hahaha...worse...!!!watch strap half spoilt..then hafta go the pacific plaza or sth to repair..dotz!!hahahaha....

ok..enuf of my lo soh..!!hahaha...start writing sth fr my book!!hehe...

CARING....

tink of the last time when u talked to sum1,n u had the impression tt they r nt listening or interested in talking to u.do u feel irritated?sure do rite...!!hahaha...

to attract others,we hv to care abt them...when we show tt we r interested in tt person,thr is rarely a problem in keeping the conversation going. when we care,we forgot ourselves..we wun be bothered by 'duno wat to sae nxt...' embarrassment...caring means putting ourselves in other ppl's shoes..to listen to wat they hafta or wana tell u...

LISTENING..

many ppl want to be heard...they r all desperate for sum1 to reli listen to them...nxt time when u r talking to them,take note of whether they reli listen to u...as much as we nit air,food n drink,we oso nit frens who will truly listen to us...

tink bt it...wun u wan ppl to gif u their full attn?sumtimes itz gd to hv sum1 to take the trouble to c life thru yr eyes....u will feel connected with the person,,,hahaha...as ppl r all starving for sum1 to listen to them TOTALLY,u shld oways try to listen with 100% of yr attn,u will become a special person for them...

n yep...i hv oways been trying to gif 100% of my attn to all my frens etc...bt at times,i get distracted...at times i selectively choose ppl to listen to...like to sum ppl i dislike,i wun gif my 100%...come to tink bt it,im quite a bad person ya...haix...hahaha...hmm...i shall work towards caring n listening to all my frens...hehehe....hmm..ok...shall continue the topic another time...

limits of friendship.....

2009-06-05T23:28:00.003+08:00

jz finished watching 命中注定我爱你，sucha swt show...hahaha....nt bad la...1 of the taiwan 偶像剧 i quite love it!!hahaha...been wanting to sae tis a looong time ago...hmm..actually,to u all,watz 幸福？to me,itz jz like me,my hubby n my children being tog..haha...we go out tog,eat tog,n do lotsa stuff tog...hahaha...lame rite...hahaha...

i came to realise tt i easily get good frens...wat i meant was tt i tend to tk tt person as my bff so long as tt person treats me well etc...even regardless of whether tt person tk me as a fren anot...hahahaha...very funi me hor...hahaha...hw come ar...sth i cant figure out...hahaha...jz crapping ard la...hahaha...ok..shall start on my lil notes liao..haha...

limits of a friendship.....
-using n abusing friends

as long as tt person is yr real fren,im sure tt they r more willing to help u shld u nit any help...bt do tk note tt ppl may b willing to help,bt they r definitely nt willing to be make used of...friendship n support is a two way traffic...u nit to monitor them closely...haha...

BEING CLOSE TO PPL IS NO EXCUSE TO INSULT THEM!
every1 hv their own DELICATE egos... friendship calls for sensitivity and tact. familiarity is fine and wonderful. But let's beware of offending. I may be yr friend,bt if i repeatedly joke abt yr looks and question yr intelligence,you'll soon look elsewhere for company. No matter hw close a friendship,thrs always room for tact.

so rem,dn mk use of ppl who treat u well....instead,appreciate them well...hahaha....eh...n thrs oways a limit to jokes....dn tk it for granted..even if the person is a miss/mr good temper,thrs still 1 day when they will explode...hahaa... sayin ppl,regardless of appearance,looks,size,or anyting,do noe when to stop...if u dn wish to lose the friend of yrs....hahaha...

flying BFF....

2009-05-23T23:43:00.003+08:00

so scary la....ytd gt 1 flying BFF of mine come find me....my superhero saved the day for me....hahaha...then today,thx to my dear nana curse,her flying bff came looking for me again...and once again,another hero saved the day...hoho..heng ar...hehe

hmm...today is quite a tedious day lor....ppl kp askin me lotsa stuff.....better nt to reveal anyting here...then i kept a distance fr the person the whole day...LOL...then today is nana's 1st day in taiwan niao..wonder hw is she sia?is she doing fine thr??haha...nth much la...jz wana post my flying BFF comin to find me for 2 days...er dao bao!!hahaha....

pls stop coming can?tho u r my bff,bt i hv nv liked u!!!argh...!!!

ytd my baobei,xue lian called me..so surprised..bt im nt tt kind like to talk on the phone de,then nth to talk lor...she jz do the talkin,i do the 'ya..ah...hannor....stuff...'LOL....reli muz find 1 day catch up la,since tt day we cant mk it...haix...hahahaha...huggies my dear baobei...heh

nana bday prezzie

2009-05-21T23:46:00.004+08:00

today im nt emo....yet fr my facial expression ppl tink im...bt today im truely jz bored,slpy n sian...bt nt at all emo...hmm....hw do i go abt changin my bored,slpy expression w/o the emo composition in it?hahaha...anw...nana received her bday prezzies fr us liao...hmm...she nv sae anyting la..bt i reli reli reli hope tt she will like the stuffs we gave her...i mean hope itz the tings she like....hmm...ok...start my article reading reflection now..hehe...

being loved...

read an article regarding loving yr family n friends....loving every1 who is around u....loving those who eva hurt u....loving those ppl who dn love u.....itz quite a meaningful inspirational story la...bt too lazy to type the whole story dn...hmm....bt fr tis,i hv learnt a lot.....

tog with the above topic,i hv oso read sth tt reli mk me wana change my directions of love...hehe...

waiting for someone.....

this article is talkin bt making the 1st move..dn oways expect ppl to mk the move...thr is this paragraph i wana share....hehe

'to avoid disappointment,form frenship w/o expecting anyting in return.Do tings for others w/o demands,and you'll never be disappointed.some ppl will return favour and affections,and some wun. If u care for ppl because u wan to,and not because u expect sth back,u wun feel crushed shld they fail to return a thought or a favour. the universe is fair n just. if u r giving out care and affection,gd tings will come back to u...'

hmm...i hv always hoped to receive ppl's love n teng...i wanted my family love,my frens teng ai...like ppl im close with,or shld sae,i felt im close with...hahahaha...hmm...i hv oways hope for la...tho...tho....i knew itz abit impossible...so a long time ago,i told myself nt to expect anyting back...tts y nw i reli dn mind la...i dn mind giving all my love to my fam n frens...without any appreciations(admit at times i still do hope tt thr is sum appreciation la...im afterall,still a human...)haha..

i wana GIVE FRIENDSHIP to my frens w/o expecting anyting in return...hmm....i felt tt i hv alr done tt la...tho sumtimes i still do err...bt i will try my very best...i wan my frens to believe tt i treat them well n with love are all fr the bottom of my heart...i wana prove fr my actions.... i reli hope tt u all will be happy oways.....i meant overall....i oso will work towards being hapi as well..

hugs

2009-05-20T00:16:00.002+08:00

today gona talk abt the topic on hugs....hehehe...

hugging is healthy!!every1 nit to be touched,and often..but sometimes ppl jz fear rejection (jz like me),so we dare nt hug our dearest frens n family....hugging lift depressions,enabling body's immunization to tune up(so nana,redoxon is nt enuf..u nit our hug,esp mine!!come ba!!)wahahaha....it mks u our tired body feel better and younger.

so,get yr hug in the morning,in the aftn,at dinner n best 1 b4 bed...LOL....of course,thr mayb ppl sayin tt-'im nt the hugging kind...'but it is still possible to become 1....(i will always welcome any1 of u....hehehe...i love hugs a lot....whether itz giving or taking....i dn mind...) u dn hv to hug every1,bt u nit to let it out sumwhr or rather....hehe

so rem,when yr down,hapi,emo or wateva,look for yr closest frens n gif them a hug.....HAHA.... hmm...anytime,anywhr.....n dn eva reject them shld any1 hug u..it jz shows tt they like u,n wants yr hug...LOL...being hugged is a blessing,hugging sum1 is sort of a relieve of emotions as well...hehe...junie loves hug...!!

wat a off day...

2009-05-18T23:49:00.005+08:00

woah....today then i realised tt i wun be working w nana for so many days....hmm....sun-wed...then aft tt 23-30th...aiyo....soooooo many days wor....sadded.....haha....

today whole day watchin dvd...hehe....tink tmr aft wk i sure finish the disc liao...cos tmr claim hr ma....then im left with 1 disc nia....woohoo~~hahaha....i so like nana gan ma in the opera wear....ahahha...

today went popular look for sth bt cant find...in the end bought sth else...diao rite...hahaha...then went NTUC buy sum stuff..LOL...

bt duno y,my flu jz cant go away...bt by tmr,sure to recover...hahaha....off day flu....diaoz....

hmm....recently so lazy to update..oso nth to update...so in the end,i jz try to be reli random la...paisey ya...LOL..shall put sum psychological test here...hehe....

你是个值得信任的人吗？

Qn：你和几个朋友在吃火锅时，你会？

A：只煮自己爱吃的料
B：默默的吃，没料时就等别人煮
C：一边加料，一边招呼大家尽量吃
D：只挑自己爱吃的，吃完了也不会主动添加

选择：
A：为人正直，爽快的你最讨厌偷鸡摸狗，耍暗算等小人行径，朋友有任何困难你绝对会相顶到底，不过全身上下都很可靠的你唯独嘴巴不牢靠，一些秘密被你知道后，大概不出三天，便会成为街头巷尾的‘通人知’的消息了.

B: 心思细腻敏感的你在朋友眼中是拥有‘读心术’的神人，许多心事都难逃你的法眼。而你除了是名敬责的倾听者，也是个保密者，让朋友非常放心对你吐露秘密。

C：社会经历丰富的你让人觉得可靠，什么事拜托你准没错。不过实际重利的你在帮助别人之前会再三衡量，自己能从中获得什么好处？或是对方的事情跟自己的利益是否有冲突，给人感觉有点世故，不够诚恳。

D：精明谨慎的你是个相当值得信任的对象，朋友若有任何秘密被你知道了也不怕，因为你是个非常守口如瓶的八卦终结者，永远是只听不说，旁人根本就别妄想能从你嘴里掏出任何秘密。

so....which one are u?r u a trustworthy person??hehehe....

random me!!hehe

2009-05-12T12:22:00.002+08:00

hmm...nth interesting to update la..recently bz watchin show show n showsssssss...hehe...tt day nana n me tk bus home tog...she 'send' me hm wor....hehe...hmm..anw....i wana watch night at the museum 2....any1 wana pei me watch??LOL

ok...being random here...so...ps ar..hehe..nana lend me watch zha bo xun an n fan li hua....i like those shows...n currently,watchin another of her gan ma show...hahaha...nt bad too...hoho.....

recently ar...i duno was it me or was it the person la...i find tt tis person very weird...the way they talk ar...very sarcastic....hmm.....resembling sum1...haix...mayb itz jz me....hahaha.....

anw nana....b hapi hapi hapi oki!!hehe...hugz...

if onli i can leave............

2009-05-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

ytd so emo...today felt light hearted...hahha....piao piao ran~~WAHAHAHAHAHAHA...crappy again....hahaha....ahems....actually trying to crap a lot cos nana sae she like crabs ma.....so i practising to become a crab(crap actually) master...LOL.....LAMES~~

hmmm......talking bt swine flu...to be serious,i reli forgot wat H and N stand for in the influenza viral grping...sad sia...studied so much in sch....yet sth so simple i forgot!!!!damn~~~hahaha....

H5 stands for the fifth of several known types of the protein hemagglutinin.
N1 stands for the first of several known types of the protein neuraminidase.

searched online then finally got the ans i wanted...woohoo~~hehehe...if nt tonite cant slp sia...
oohh....so itz a RNA virus....(which i hv forgotten)...hahaha...bla!!!wana be thicked skin again...wana ask kylie for uni notes and ask dar for notes too...poly de...LOL...hmm....recently cos bz watchin shows then nv update....aft i finished watchin le will update ya..hehe... =p

ai xin ji dan fr nana.....=)

2009-04-19T00:03:00.003+08:00

hmm....today 'quite' busy la...haha...as compared to normal days...lol....hmm....then ar...served tis customer for a very very very loooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggg time sia....reli testing how patient im...LOL...hmmm....anw...the main ting i wana sae is....today soooo happy.....hahaha....

the above is jz an ordinary fried eggie to u rite...haha...bt to me ar....is known as 'ai xin ji dan'...cos is nana fried de....she fried then got my share lei...so swt la....no wonder whole day warm warm de la...~~hehe...(mayb oso cos aircon nt coold enuf..)hahaha...so swt...hehe...thx nana... =)

nw watchin the show nana lend me..eh...女巡按n another show...forgot the title...haha...started watchin niao...hehe...eh....hmm....till nw watchin ep 4....quite nice sia...so comical...so cute...hehehe....okok...shall continue watchin niao...come online actually is jz to blog abt my 'ai xin ji dan' from nana de...WAHAHAHAHHAA....tata...

outing with dar....

2009-04-15T00:13:00.004+08:00

today met up with dardar la...aft sooooooooo looooooong....lol.....hmm....went soup spoon or sth thr drink soup...big big bowl de....very bloated.....haaha...clam chowder dn taste very nice...n itz dar's treat again...she oways fighting w me to pay la..!!!!!!argue on the phone n threatened to nt mit me if i treat...grrr~~hahaha....din tk photo la...cos dar sae c my cam remind her of her sad stuff...lol....then we shop ard...went coach n dardar haolian her coach purse or sth...hahaha.. nola....jz showing me...haha...then went msq sit sit thr lor...drank starbucks...slack thr....talk talk talk.....sisters talk....LOL....

accompany her to the mrt stn....took train w her...hehe...at the train stn,tis guy came to me n hi....tink is sum1 i knew bt i dn rem hu he is....imagine i still hafta act act noe him lor...paisey dao~~still muz jiajia....tho i suspect is my poly junior...duno lei...forgotten...~~cos dar oso dn rem him....hmmm.....then dar n i took sum pics tog lo....heh...

gave dar n fam sum keychains n a chop n makan....hahaha....when she went hm,she thanked me...for even giving her a live beetle...i hv no idea when the beetle were inside the bag...cos when i jz plc the food in the bag,thr isn't any..LOL....anw..forgotten to sae,'yr welcome dar.....'..hehe..hoho...LOL...

today whole day ar...finished another disc of gui zhang fu...gona continue disc 3 nw....yeah!!!tts all folks...

taiwan trip day 2....part 1.....

2009-04-14T02:05:00.006+08:00

today is our second day in taiwan....we packed up,left the hotel n continued our journey....in btn i kept slpin in the coach..so unsure of watz happening...when i woke up,i heard sth bt 'bin lang' stuff....heard n heard of it,bt nv c the real one b4....so.....the tour bus past by one on purpose to show us...n yupz...elephant bought the 'bin lang' for us to try...hoho....lets c....

the above shows the 'bin lang' girl...haha...dressed skimpily....

this is the bin lang le la...hahaha...hard hard de...hahaha...

when we started eating,this is hw our facial expression look like...WAHAHAHA....bitter dao~~~ itz like chewing gum....aft chewing for 20-30 times,u spit out the juice then cont bitting...then aft sum time,u felt a kinda warmth fr yr neck up...hahaha....

then we proceed on to 'sun moon lake'...haha...warm weather...hahaha...nt as cold as wat nana sae...haha...aiya...weather changes...hehe...bt very nice scenery...hoho....

me n nana.......

then we went to the peacock garden....go thr of course is to c peacock la...HAHA...

we proceed to the temple...haha...took sum pics thr...ate the mountain pig sausage....hahaha...

pics again...hehe

bought sum handmade accessories thr....hahaha....to be continued part 2....

taiwan trip day 2....part 2.....

2009-04-14T00:26:00.007+08:00

we went to the paper factory...c the process of them making all diff kinda papers....lol...

pics lor...hahaha....

pls treasure every pc of paper....haha

over thr,i made a paper fan...cos too ugly,so dn wana post la..shy....WAHAHAHA...nola...nv tk pic of it...

then our last stop was leisure farm....tt is whr our accommodation were...flowery,insecty n swanie plc...WAHAHAHA...

us eating our dinner....hahaha....'flower eat...'we ate flowers....

an eg was the flower handroll la....i reli duno hw to appreciate the taste la....hahaha....weird...~~

we had tis lil art craft....design our own keychain...LOL

that marks the end of our 2nd day....hahaha....ps ya...lazy to update a lot...hahaha...so roughly lo...hahaha

cai cai ni shi shui 1....

2009-04-12T23:00:00.003+08:00

wat a weekend....so lil ppl...so boring...so sian...so slpy...lol...ppl guess my age as below 20....bt i realised hor...im like a auntie la...nag nag nag nag nag....haha...sadded...sound soooo old la...sobx...hahaha...so boring la...ting went bk malaysia...no sot sot ppl ard..haha.left 1 ccl everyday doing the same ting to me..poke me..push me....wu liao dao~ haha..

lazy to upload photos n stuff...so decided to do wu liao stuff...~~~n watchin gui zhang fu nw..hehe...so sad la....i cry cry cry....then sumhw the emo feel in me became better...at least my feelings nt all bottled up in my heart...itz like released fr my tears..haha...read the 10 promises to my dog story oso cried...diao~~recently so emo la..anw..the show i finished 1 disc le..hehe...finished 7 episodes...wana continue bt scare tmr tired sia...so shall stop....aim to finish another disc tmr..cos the nxt day off..hehe..whee~~

ok...jz being bored here...eh...i knew sum1 whom i find so cute de...haha...very noti...bu ting hua one...haha...aft saying so much,still like to 'bleah' me one...haha...mk me feel so old n she so young...haiyo...at 1st,i tot shes sum1 very serious de...haha...to tink at times ar...the small kid in her 'activated...' WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA....so nt her la...haha...i feel sumtimes like so playful lidat..LOL...bt fun la...at least more 'le qu' n fun ma...haha...can u guess hu u r??WAHAHAHA...
CLUE:once u r used to,u will find her quite gd...sum1 whom i felt outside hard hard..inside actually soft soft one...occasional oso WILL crap de...then...lidat lo..sum1 whom i wud respect n at the same time,is my gd fren...LOL...(based on my own feeling nia...)

P.S.: more human guesses coming up...eh...if im reli bored...WHAHAHAHA

sth i duno if i shld regret or not....

2009-04-11T00:15:00.003+08:00

today,the whole day,my mind was kept occupied...occupied by a number of tings....by $$...by family....by friends....by age....by studies.....by job......by many many other stuff...

as i hv mentioned earlier,i wish to hv a loving fam...i wish to hv siblings....recently rather troubled by money...nt tt i hv nt enuf $$ la...jz frustrated...life w/o $$ wud restrict u a lot....u cant go to yr dream plc...cant hv yr dream stuff....perhaps cos we hv stay in sucha advance plc tt lead us to be rather materialistic....like in those developing countries,im sure wat they wan is to hv a shelter over their head n kp their stomach full...itz the environment i guess...

then i tot of my studies....yupz....ppl tell me i shld study in mdis or psb...sum sae if i possible,itz better to go bk aussie to study...sum tell me wats the use of studyin?i hv got many diff types of feedbacks fr diff ppl...seriously,in my current situation,i reli duno wat i shld do...im so confused n lost now...i hope to continue studying...i hope to at least attain a degree..im nt young anymore...

come to tink abt it,i duno wat life wud be if my grandma din pass away,n im still in aussie studying...perhaps i would hv been planning to further my degree to honours...perhaps i wud hv tot to apply PR thr...probably i wud hv found my mr right thr..hehe...

to mk myself nt feel tt emo n sianz......tinking on the bright side of life is gd...at least i wun be alone in aussie nw,missing singie all the time....then i din go bk,i continue workin at wintertime...made great friends....get to noe tingting well.....noe jiaying,how eng ccl they all....recently got to noe sum1 fr my sch...a senior...hehe...quite a gd chap...thx to von la....!!!LOL...then to me la...at least i hv nana as my friend...nt tt shes nt my fren initially...jz tt i gt to noe her more...which is gd la..hohoho...itz diff ppl's feel ba...like to her is nth,bt to me,i hv another gd fren...hehe...

job is another factor im considering....a past attachment colleague told me CGH looking for ppl...yupz...bt the ting is pay wud be much lower....nt far fr my current pay....she say la...then the more impt ting is,if i reli wana go,i muz start studyin n preparing lor...cos tink i hv forgotten 7788 of my medical stuff liao...muz refresh my memory la..haha...then bk at wintertime,wun stay at suntec for looong le...wonder whr i wud b transferred to??*ponders*

taiwan trip day 1......part 2....

2009-04-09T23:28:00.011+08:00

As we continue,we went to the zoo portion of the theme park...?!!ahahaha....then the 1st ting we saw was 2 flamingo 'muackz muackz-ing...'...so 'high' sia....WAHAHAHAHA.....

kissing flamingo...muackz muackz muackz....

me n the red indian guy???LOL...my new taiwan bf....hohoho

After tt we went fong jia night mkt la...had our dinner thr....

1st time im exposed to tis kinda 'ye shi'

look at the queue......itz sumting tts reli popular at that mkt....itz........

'big sausage wrap round small sausage'...

we wana try,so we went to line up for it...i lined up for the orange sign board de,n ting lined up for the red sign board de.....they r nxt to each other...n they r competitors...LOL...*shivers* reli cold la....haha....i still act strong....LOL

bought lotsa food bk to the hotel...eh...like smelly tou fu,'big sausage wrap round small sausage',fried golden mushies,guo tie bla bla...hehe....yums......slurp...~~~

yupz...tt marks the end of day 1....n marks the beginning of fat fat us.....hehe....

taiwan trip day 1......part 1....

2009-04-08T15:15:00.009+08:00

first..b4 i begin,*tututututu* the above are sum menu on the list at aladdin restaurant..yupz....great for ppl who love meaty....hehe...

ok...let us begin our day 1 itinerary...we stayed a nite at ccl's plc....left her plc at bt 6am.....din reli slp much la....ting n nana nv slp at all..me n ccl slept...LOL....then we arrived at the airport....

we at ccl plc ready to 出发~~~~~~

im still so slpy emo-eeeee n ting still so awake....hehe...

tis is our tour guide.....ELEPHANT....hahaha......talked a lot....increase our knowledge loads....thanks to him.....

we 4 standing at leofoo village...fr left.. junie,tingting,nana n ccl..

the wintertime ppl........hehe......

nana n her 白马王子...hahaha.....the sengs n bengs.....*oopz....* bleah...!!! =p

wa...xiao ao fei ying or sth....nt for the weak-heart....i din take tis ride....as u noe la...ppl my age cant tk tis ride...wait heart stop....*DANGER*....hehe

me n ting's 1st ride....sum train tingie....

me n ting took tis viking lookalike...bt it go 360......hai hao la.....haha...my heart still can tk it...hehe...

me n ting ah....huggies.....cold cold...LOL

me n nana....cold cold too....LOL

sum other rides...hehe....all nv take....LOL

taken at the aladdin plc....haha...hope by touching ,the genie can grant me 3 wishes....hehe

an overview of the magical world of aladdin....hoho

me,nana n ting on the adventure of the flying carpet...wheeeeeee~~~

me n ting on the flying carpet....flyin in mid air...LOL

shall continue another day for day 1 part 2....hehe

family....hopes....

2009-04-06T22:51:00.002+08:00

hmm......mixed feeling today.....slpy...tired....sianz....haha...nana like officially sick lidat...hmm...i started reading 10 promises to my dog(chinese edition which i bought in taiwan)...eh....talkin bt her n her mum...i envy ppl who r reli reli close w their fam...i envy ppl who hv reli close parents....like siblings kind...if i hv my own children,i oso hp i wud b able to do tt...for tis hope,im nt too sure if i cud....bt one ting for sure,by judging fr my childish-ness,tink i wud b more childish than any of my children...LOL....*chui*

today i was tinking bt my wishes n hopes...asked nana bt it too....LOL...(ok...admit i was bored) till nw,i reli hp to hv siblings....be it younger,or older...tho i oways hp for a elder sis or bro..i love tt kind of having elder siblings to dote on me...eh....i noe siblings do quarrel...bt at the end of the day,u r still siblings...tts sth u cant change...

haha....duno wat to sae tho...suan le....tata.....

final destination 3 show nw....

2009-04-05T23:11:00.003+08:00

today nana half sick liao....so ke lian.....muz tk care sia....ahahaha....me....due to my too overly healthy body,wana sick bt could nt...sad dao~~~hahaha....in fact,recovering soon....weird tinking ya...?LOL

hmm...nw duno y showing final destination 3 on tv....im a fan of this show sia....hahaha...saddistic me...bt din expect it to show nw on tv....hahaha....rem watchin tis show w dar tt time.....rem her expression....amused...hehe...fine....shall cont my show nw....tata...

bk fr taiwan..........

2009-04-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

yozzie...am bk fr taiwan liao...hw time flies....initially no excitement..then started to feel a lil excited...stayed over at ccl's plc...then went to airport...reached taiwan...played for 5 days...then came bk..worked today....haha...fast sia...haha...dn even noe wat to sae...er..overall,enjoyed la...din reli spend a lot like the rest...bt came to noe tt ppl change as lil as $1oo or $300...forgot...haha...*shocks*bought lotsa makansss....lil clothes...sum stuff for frens n fam...nth much for myself...haha...bt exposed to the diff plc thr...like night mkt thr...farm stay...hot spring...cold cold...theme park...mountains....food....bla bla....haha..quite fun la...fun cos with nana they all ma...haha...bt fell sick liao...*coughs*haha..

actualli wanted to post pics here...bt realised tt mayb aft i tk all pics fr the rest then i post ba...more varieties...u noe la...the ME who dn reli love taking pics lots de...hehe..*oopz*...

slept 2 nites w ting.2 nites w ccl...oohh..sads....nv SLP w nana lei...haha...mix feeling since 1st day...due to sum stuff,i emooooo for sum time in the day...then due to sum other stuff,i emooooo one day during the nite....hais....easily emo me...LOLS....y sia...

in the plane,watched a few shows....jacky go go go,the curious case of benjamin button,bedtime stories,marley n me(yes..watched again bt onli for a lil while),just for laughs,n 1 more show bt forgot wat show...LOLS..

love gg hol...wana go aussie again..duno why...hmm...tts wat human are....when u get to go thr,u wana come bk...miss singapore...bt when u r bk in singapore,u wana go thr...miss thr....aiya...so contradicting...haha...ohya..my lao-ya luggage heng nv gave up sia....it survived....phewsss~~~wat a relieve...hees..boring...fine...shall do sth else nw..tata...

wat a happy day...!!!

2009-03-25T22:51:00.004+08:00

ok...2 tings to mention today....

Scene 1
ytd finished wk at 930+++...wana watched movie at AMK hub hub hub hub at 950pm...so....rushed with von thr...wa....fast with abit of considerably pro...watched coming soon...eh....the whole show actualli nt sae very nice..the ting abt the show is the effect n abit of mk up la...LOL...thr is tis part when i let my guard down (as i tot it wasn't gona b scary) n at the same time,listen to von talking....then din realise when suddenly the ghost jz appear...i tell u...tt part i shouted la...then von got frightened by me partially,n the other half frightened by the ghost i guess...!!!RFLOL...aft tt went to eat pratassssss....then chat then went hm...

Scene 2
today is a happy day...duno y...jz felt the real happy me at that moment...laughing fr the bottom of my heart...jz happy lor...i laughed horribly i guess....hahaha...normally sumhw i wud b troubled by sth...bt today i felt trouble-less....no stress....no unhapi....nth...jz me!!!n my nana n ccl....hahaha....wonder if i wud be happy again,jz like today...HAHA...

von tryin to help me matchmake....which ended up with 4 ppl adding me when i dun even noe hu they r...LOL....n yu bin came over today...bought us sum dohnuts...chatted with us for awhile...bt too bad she came at the wrong time,cos jz nice stock came...LOL...then uncle tong so suay...cos when he wana go dn,the lift under svr..haha..

ok.....shld be done with my draggy loongy story.....shall start watchin perfect cut 1 now...tata

happenings

2009-03-23T01:02:00.002+08:00

sum time back,watched 3d my bloody valentine...a new experience...haha...wana watch coming soon n the unborn..they all seems nice...nt enuf time sia,it seems....recently i hv been tinkin n tinking...i felt tt i hv let sum ppl down...like...a bad person...cant zou huo ru mo...!

i came abt tis conclusion recently...ppl whom i tot of as gd ppl came out of my 'gd ppl' expectations whereas ppl whom i tot was nt as gd,actually went into my 'gd ppl' category..itz kinda hard to explain bt.....jz wana write it here..LOL... i hv learnt to accept individuals for who they r...at least they dn pretend..in the past,i wud hv tis kinda dn talk too much to a person who u dn tink is gd...sth lidat..bt nw...i dn...i talk,share,joke etc etc ...ya...i admit till nw i dn tell ppl hw i reli,exactly feel inside,bt at least i 'relax' abit nw..haha...

i saw pics of my previous attachment laboratory colleagues n classmates workin thr..sumtime i miss the times thr...so fun with them ard...like wati,alice etc etc...haha...always lively n fun with them ard...i miss sch life a lil...esp poly..study tog,stress tog,hi-bye tog,eat tog bla bla...rem having to go to sch as early as 7am to sch as exam starts at 8.rem meeting with bren dar n khadijah dearie at the applied science canteen for breakfast...rem the relieve aft the last paper...rem all the fun...immediately aft the last paper,i wud go out w my grp of buddies n frens..then when i returned hm,i wud chat w auntie..watch tv,rent dvds n online all the way...so memorable...

now....it seems tt my buddies n frens n i r losing touch with each other....unexplanable..sobs...my life seems to revolve jz ard work,work n work...other than tt,i go hm or stay at nanny's to be a 'ah zha'...siaos sia...LOL...wonder if i cud go bk to sch sooooooon....???

recently i felt disappointed,frustrated n duno wat sia...jz damn super unhapi la...bt wat can i do...?itz jz the ME being emo again n again...received too much disappointments n unhappiness...hated ppl who brk their promise n still tink they r right..hated tings related to $$... hated the happenings ard me...bt who can help me??WHO???sum tings are jz meant to be kept in the heart....upsets.....at times seriously hate life... ='(

ok..!!nw for the happy stuff...gg taiwan in 1 week's time...company's trip..eh....gg with ccl,nana n ting...thx to ting,i saved up on my jacks..LOL...were saying abt suntec will become a laughing stock when we returned....

1)WAH....elna ar...go taiwan onli sia....wear such thick n heavy jacket....
2)WAH....tt ccl ar....still use chemical warmer lei....
3)WAH...tt june ar...dn c her big big size ar....she scare of butterfly lo...pls la....aiyo.....
4)ting....eh....hvn tot of 1....any idea any1??LOL

okla...shall stop here for nw....b4 tt,shall say sth....ting take me as a turkey...TURKEY...!!!!!!LOL

ghostly shows...

2009-03-02T19:14:00.003+08:00

watched marley and me the other time....hmm...the show reli nice....the story bla bla..n partly cos im a dog lover...hahaha....anw....gona go watch my bloody valentine soon.....hmm..itz a murder show.....best to watch 3d...haha...

then promised jo tat will pei her watch kung fu chefs....bt durin her hol....which is sooon.....haha... then i wana watched coming soon too...!!!itz a horror show....eh...fr directors of shutter,4bia n alone....quite creepy la....cos i watched the trailer,n went to the url....i abit scare scare lor...hahaha...tts y i sae....sometimes hor....go watch tis kinda show is like 'fan jian...'hahaha..i mean myself la...cos u noe it gona scare u,mk u feel uncomfy,bt yet u still wana watch....什么跟什么嘛...!!hahaha...isit another show tt gona b like shutter？the thai one???hmm...*ponders*lol...

recently put lotsa aeroplanes n helicopters...sori every1.....duno y i became so homely...jz wana slack at hm...probably old liao...hahaha...i wana save up,n hopefully will lotteries....LOL...so tt i can pay off my debts n go on a hol...haha...

elna ar...so gd life lor....1 yr go soooooooo many times hol...shuang dao~~~ hahaha...wana save enuf $$ to go somewhr i hv oways wana go...recently tot bt many tings...actualli,i hv come to realised tt itz easier to sae u treasure ppl ard u,bt when u wana do it,itz hard....n most of the time,u neglect them...hmm....i hv lost too much...be it frens,family,money,education etc...

recently my chest reli hurts...plus the stuff i gt fr diff ppl,felt the stress,then it hurts....hmmm....sadded sia...cos felt very uncomfy....haix...wait 1 day when i slp,my heart sudd stop,then im gone.... ....hahaha...jz crapping...okla...nth much to update sia....tata

cny 1st day visitation....

2009-01-27T21:31:00.007+08:00

itz new year 2nd day today...rot at hm until super sian...hahaha...wu liao dao~~~anw...ytd went my mum side bai nian la..my cute cousin hannah alr so grown up le..i mean shes so tall n cute n smart...hehe...of cos,tog with my other cousins like jolene,rachel,shaun n leon...the diff is tt we dn get to eat ah ma food again....n no more ah ma...hmmm....hannah is reli a smart girl...haha...n she is nt afraid of strangers...haha...soo cute...she love taking photos...bt haiyo...my hp abit lag,so she oways cant wait long..hehe...post sum photos soon..hehe...plus hor...she appear like sooo close to me,bt she din noe who im lor...play with me..want me carry her,wana sit on my lap,learn the way i talk n talk to me...when ask her hu im,she duno wat to sae,then she shy shy cover her face...diu!!haha..

anw...to my surprise,we went my dad side wor...cos my th uncle came bk fr melbourne...hehe...my tt 4 cousins all so grown up le...pretty n handsome...hahaha....the rest of my cousins hmm...same lor...all bigger n taller onli la...their names....i duno...WAHAHAHAHHA...took photos bt nt my cam...hahaha...

hmm...me n jo n hannah...hahaha...

we again...hannah pose until tired sia...haha...

sianz dao~~cos hannah dn wana c the cam cos c too loong le n my hp still lag...

finally a not bad pose fr all of us...LOL..the rest of my cousins go hm le..tts y onli left we 3..haha

hannah posing again..hehe

hannah 'tou kan' me...hahaha....she cute cute la...i tis angle cannot mk it...hahaha

Jolene Tan!!!hahaha....

Hannah Lee En Xi...LOL

after all the bai nian,went to cineleisure with jo...watched the wedding game...wah...super kua zhang la....soooo many ppl....reached at 930...tot managed to watch the 955 show...bt hor...all shows sold out....diu....bo bian watched the 12 midnite de lor....sian dao~~went swensen (AGAIN!!!!)....tk ice cream n fries lor...gai gai awhile lo...by the time we went to watch,the whole theatre fully occupied lor...kua zhang...lol....hmm....the show funny la...bt nt sae fantastic...so-so lor...hahaha....ok..end of bao gao....haha...

happy CNY!!!!

2009-01-26T03:25:00.002+08:00

hahaha....happy CNY every1....hahaha....gong xi gong xi...!!!eh.....boring la...~~wat a eve....hahaha...plenty of time to watch show.....plenty of time to update blog....hahaha...plenty of time to do soooooo many tings....LOL....anw....tmr arranged to go watch movie with my cousins,jolene....duno if rachel wana join us...hahaha....jo sae wana watch the wedding game...oso good la...wana watch sumtime comedy....hahaha...wana do sth la....tis yr no more ah ma ard le....go gugu hse onli to c bb hannah...wonder hws she le...muz be very talkative n tall le...nv get her anyting lei...so ps...haiyo...hahaha....if gt time then tk sum pic post online ba...ok la...go watch tv le...tata....hahaha...happy new yr once again....WAHAHAHAHA

ting ting bday big meal...LOL

2009-01-26T02:32:00.003+08:00

ok....b4 i start....wana sae sth la....last 2 post,went makan at nite rite...hahaha....1 day at heeren thr la....hahaha....then on the 5th,went JB with tingting ma....hahaha....pei her go highlight hair...haha...long hrs la...hahaha....anw...by the time we come back,bt 10+ le....then we bo bian went orchard swensen eat again....bt cos too hungry we din tk pic...hahaha...ordered rodeo wings,she wanted spagetti, n i ordered chix stuff...hahaha...

then on the 8th,went with her to eat her bday big meal at heeren again...from NYDC hvn moved to NYDC moved,we were thr to witness...LOL....within 9 days,we were thr for 3 time le...siao rite...hahahaha...orchard chiongster...LOL...ok....8th....went jack's plc eat la...hahaha....celebrate her bday in advanced...LOL....below are sum photos...hahaha....

for a start,we had our soup n garlic bread.....mine is lobster bisque...hahahaha

ting's is cream of mushroom....

picture of ting n her soup....LOL.....

ting with her steak....hers was supposed to be ribeye steak...eh...holding her fav tobasco sauce...

tis is mine...sirloin steak....eh....ours both oso medium rare.....hehe...

bt end up ting's like well done again,then she kp niam niam,end up the soooo good me changed with her la...hahaha....who ask me to be so gd so teng her....hahaha....bleah!!! xp

tis is my dessert....hahaha....with my fruit tea....

tis is ting's dessert-cheesecake with cappucino...hahaha...

end up we both too full la...cant finish.....hahaha...waste of food.....hahaha...hope she enjoy the food la....hahaha....n hope she hapi la...hehe...

ok.....sum xtra stuff...eh....hahaha....ting doing funi tings again....act bb,at young...buay tahan her la...hahahaha....bt cos we too bored at wk....LOL.....'small' girl in our shop.....

act cute ting...LOL...

then nt long ago,went cafe cartel with ting n ccl again....LOL....supper-ing again n again....aiyo....hahahaha......anw...the LV bag below is a gift fr my nanny son....hahaha....by right is imitation,bt the diff ting i c n hv,so contradicting de...haiyo....hahahaha....weird n funi....kuku too....hahhaa.....

changing appetite on new year eve

2009-01-26T02:24:00.005+08:00

ok!!tis is looong ago post number 2...hmm....recently so lazy tts y din post anyting..LOL...on new year's eve,went to changing appetite @ marina sq for mum mum aft wk...hmm...fattening sia...cos on 30th went swensen eat.......as wat mentioned in earlier post...LOL...actualli jz to post photos la...haha....

The 1st food being served....fried sliced onions i guess....hahaha..too loong ago le..4got...hahaha...anw...ting with the food again...as usual...LOL

close up pic....hahaha

our main course..eh...tink tis is nana's...beefy stuff...yums....LOL....

tis is mine...eh...special honey bbq steak or sth...hahaha

bb ribeye....ting's la...hahaha....oso honey bbq de...

the mudpie...yums....nice....big...n huge...wateva...LOL....called cookie monster...LOL...ting love it cos itz her fav,cookie n cream...hahaha

the long necked animal wearing a spec??!!!!!!!!all kinda diff story behind them...hmm...was tinking hor,mayb cos watched too much tv..wahahaha...jz being lame~~~

hv u eva seen a cow locked up lidat??so ke lian sia...jz waiting to be slaughtered for us to eat...haix...sads...~~~~~WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

me n ah ting la...hahaha

c...ting putting mask at hm while webcam with me....scary la..in the middle of the night,so ghostly~~*goosebumps everywhr*

a nite at swensen...

2009-01-26T01:45:00.004+08:00

on 30th dec aft wk,went to the 24hr swensen la...at orchard...near heeren tt one...hmm..went with ccl n ting...haha...happening la..cos when we went thr,long long queue ma...end up we wanted to go other plc...walked ard,sat at nydc awhile b4 deciding to go bk swensen...LOL...kuku rite....hahaha...tts wat happen when a grp of kukus are tog...hehe...anw...hmm..the svr thr quite slow....hahaha...n no good......jz by looking at the pic below,can u tell??ccl is sooooo unhapi with the svr la....until she started SCOLDING...LOL....nola...bt it does look like she holding a cigarette n scolding as she puffs rite...hehehe...good photographer tk gd photos...LOL

ccl la...hahaha......

the drink she ordered the 1st ting we reached,bt she gt it when we hv finished our main meal...WAHAHAHA...no wonder shes sooo unhapi la...even wrote feedback....hahaha

rodeo chix....hahaha...nice la...nt bad....appetiser..

tis is the funi knife la...know wat happen....my fish n chip came 1st...then i was eating when ting steak came....at tt time,i actuali put dn my knife cos i was eating the rodeo wing....our dear ting very SHUN SHOU tk my knife n use la...hahaha...im like -_-'"...hahaha....kuku lor....hahaha...oways so kuku de....

ting's steak with the american flag...WAHAHAHA

ccl de steak i tink...hahaha...so dry,lil n soooo nt nice rite....waahahahaha...

my yumyum fish n chip la...of course nice la...hehehe...

ting de steak...look nicer than ccl bt still nt very nice...taste nt nice too....ordered medium duno wat end up come look like well done...

shld b all ba....forget le....hahahha....this is jz the start of my fat fat days.....LOL.....

xmas dinner at meritus mandarin...

2008-12-26T23:51:00.014+08:00

On xmas eve,claimed sum hr and went to meritus mandarin to hv our xmas BIG BIG meal..hmmm....got to eat the super ex chicken rice, got to enjoy it with my salmon yip and yuzhen...hahaha....eh...okok la...nt sae very fantastic la...bt overall quite ok...nice experience...LOL... jz post post pics and tok bt it ba..hehe...

This is how the plc look like fr our view...It is actually a ballroom..hehe...

The gifts they gave us...partying stuffs + a big eye chicken toy + $10 voucher to chatterbox to eat the ex chix rice...LOL

The food we got 1st....seafood...prawnies...oysters (to nana is 'harm' in hokkien.WAHAHAHA),bb lobsters,sashimi,salads,hams etcs....hahaha...yums for a start....

eh....mini band..LOL...they reli wat language oso noe sia...eh...christmas carols,love songs,canto songs(eg:shang hai tan song),hokkien song,chinese song(eg.xiao wei)..btw....they r malays i guess...LOL

Ting's big plate of salmon sashimi..suspected of causing her 上吐下泻!!!haha

the main dishes i guess...LOL...chix rice,scallops etc...nt bad la...haha...bt i sumhw tink tt the chix rice like nt very worth $18+..hahaha..my own view tho....

left: scallop.. rite:the amt of chix ting scoop for me...scary rite...hw nice c oso scare alr lor...hahaha...she wan to mk sure i fully utilised my $78++...and at the same time,use hers as well...hahaha...ppl c me like im sum greedy mountain tortoise 1st time eat chix rice lidat...haha

sum of the other food we took..LOL...

dessert time...LOL....

sum of the desserts we took...most we dn like..too swt...hahaha...

the long toast or wateva is tt call...tis girl forced me to tk for her..paisey lor...haha...so long....hahahaha....

she broke tt wateva toast and used it as chopstix...hahaha

ting doing funny stuff again...... ........ .......

this is the chair we deserve la...for paying soooo much for a buffet...LOL...big big chair....wahaha

This is wat they oways sae....capricorns look alike...in the lift wor...both touchin their 肚肚tog... without noticing me snapping shots of them...LOL....

Photos of me n tingting(left),me n chantal(centre),tingting n chantal(rite)

OK!!!thats all folks....hahahahahaha....aft dinner we went hm..tts all!!!hehe...

the nxt day...supposedly to hv 7 ppl working,bt end up,4 mc....left me,nana n kerrie...bt afterall,considered a fun day at wk tho abit bored n quiet...LOL..i mean except when tts small LIL corwd occasionally....hehe...

salmon yip wang teng~~~hahaha

2008-12-21T00:15:00.004+08:00

今天super ‘BUSY’ lor...busy until 2 person can go break tog....busy until can replenish goods....can talk...can relax....can chat....im feeling so so so busy....LOL....不敢相信今天是星期六!!!haha...anyway....today went ichiban boshi eat...ordered executive meal..

our executive meal...got salmon teriyaki,unagi,tempura,salmon sashimi,miso soup,chawamushi,orange,lotus and rice...LOL

my drink: chocolate mango juice or sth..WAH!!!VERY VERY............................not nice...weird taste....LOL

on top of that,we ordered salmon maku or sth....like hana maki...haha..yums...!!!

they look reli 'fat' aren't they??hahaha...

Ting's greedy look again!!!!LOL

the salmon sashimi with skin....LOL....

Ting trying my drink..

ting eating the hana maki..hahaha...

p.s: sadded!!!ppl blog always gt their photos etc...my blog onli hv photos of others,or photos of food,or items...bt nt me!!!hahaha...

anyway....ting got first name alr...she is called salmon yip wang teng....!!!!WAHAHAHAHA...due to her eating sooooooooooooooooo much salmons tis mth....hahaha...

1)she went sakae with me n we ate salmon sashimi,salmon sushi n hana maki...

2)she went kuishin-bo n sushi king with her boyfriend n she attacked salmon sashimi again!!

3)we went royal plaza dinner buffet,she,again,attacked salmon sashimi..

4)today we ate salmon again!!!

5)christmas eve she gona go eat salmon sashimi again at a hotel buffet...

WAH!!!all in the mth of nov n dec....she gona look like 1 alr...WAHAHAHAHA...bleah!!

outing with dardar wor!!

2008-12-18T14:22:00.003+08:00

tt day went pizza hut with nana and we ate the x'mas surprise meal or sth...LOL...hmm....all so-so ba...i dn reli like the pizza...felt a lil salty lor....hahaha...

a pic of the pizza....hahaha....

ytd claimed hour n went out with dardar...heh....went to watch movie with her....we watched tis show,Bolt...wa...super nice...heh....funny,lame-o,cute....heh....dn mind watchin again,bt wana watch in 3D version...LOL.....

this show lo...nice....mayb cos i love dogs....heh....

my next show is marley and me....heh...quarantine gonez le la....nv get to watch....LOL...bt marley n me reli muz watch....i love the story....wana read the story again...hahaha...

ok..back to my outing....we went cine to watch...then aft tt went HK cafe...hahaha....cos gt cravings for tang yuan.....bt...ordered wrongly again....sobz....ordered the one with filling..i want it plain!!!!! =( sad dao~~~bt once again,itz dar's treat!!!wa...she ar...silly silly de....hahaha

my bowl of tang yuan....hunph~~!!no plain ones....sadded...!!!

on top of tang yuan,i ordered fried mantou n wanton....hmmm....okok onli la...heh....

throughout fr movie till go hm,my dear dardar super bz...msg la....talk on the phone la....wa....bz dao~~~~hahahaha....

we went more than words....she bought many many christmas prezzies....n 1 for me...hehe....yoshi home slippers....heh.....thx dardar.....

my fave yoshi.....hehe....the all-along i love slippers....wana buy bt nt fated!!haha...nw i gt it...from dar!!!hapi hapi!!!love it loads...love my dar even more!!!heh...muackz dar...thankie!!!

foooooood~~~

2008-12-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

ytd was me off day....haha...went out the whole day....eh....went eating n playing....n walking non-stop....hmmm....bt still,neck pain pain...sprained me neck....sobs....LOL..before i start,wana sae sth...looong looong time ago,went to eat steamboat buffet with tingting n cecelia...unforgettable day...cos ate my fave mushies....the GOLDEN mushroom...da ta~~~WAHAHAHA....reminds me of sum1 who kept giving me pig liver....

the above is juz 1/20 of them.....WAHAHAHA...eat until i scare sia...

OK.!back to my outing ytd...spent a bomb ytd...wooo~~1st...i arrived and idle along lucky plaza waiting for ting...the i saw this uncle,is a uncle....who was carryin a dog with a 'baby carrier' or sth....forgot wat tts called..u noe...those that look like a front backpack then they put the baby in front?okok..nvm...bt anw...the dog was treated like a baby..LOL...on top of tt,the man was oso pushin a pram,with 2 other dogs in thr..eh....a uncle doin tt along orchard is a lil weird...he receives many stares from every1 walkin n workin thr...LOL....

ting said she hungry so we proceed to pastamania to eat lor...ordered marinara upsize with combo A,a mango soda,and a flat white coffee...LOL..then wana go taka de...bt who noes,itz raining cats n dogs thr...went to watson to buy sum stuffs...the spent another 5 bucks jz to get an umbrella...ting so swt..bought me the salonpas n tiger 'ko yoh' -in hokkien...then loiter ard taka...bought durian pancake..(ting complained n compared with chinatown's pancake bt so bosim,cos nv buy sum fr chinatown let us try..haix..WAHAHAHA) then we slowly walked to royal plaza n waited for our dinner to start...LOL...

we started our dinner by first getting lotsa lotsa sashimissssss......yumyum!!!salmons....woohoo...~~then we tried almost everyting...reli reli filling...ting's fave-salmon sashimi n tiramisu....LOL..forgot to tk pics of the sashimi... below are pics of ting's fav tiramisu...LOL

left:top view... right:full look of it...WAHAHA

the above are sum of the other stuffs ting took...wah....she reli wana eat until value for $$...LOL

the 7 diff cakes she took.........

her fave r the cheesecake...apparently,as u can c,onli gt 6 half-eaten slices of cakes left thr...can u spot the diff btn the top n this pic??WAHAHA...

ting with her fave desserts...LOL...ate sum oysters,fondue etc etc as well....c her..alr started to aim the stuff she wana eat le..LOL...

then came the ice cream..i mean we wen tot take la...she noe i very full bt still scoop sucha big scoop of ice cream for me...THANKS ah ting...hahaha....

left is mine,right is hers...u c u c...she...scooped so lil for herself!!!!and mine....eat until sooooooo full....reminds me of the pig liver incident ah!!!hahahaha

aft eating for a loooong loooong time,still left lidat......hers finished le...LOL

anw...this buffet ok la..had fun tho....haha...saw yuzhen in thr la...so qiao...!!!LOL..... aft tt we went to play wii at cine.....ooooo....waited half an hr for the room to be avail...LOL...in the meantime,played photohunt...hahaha....we played with wii...played super mario party...me won...me won...n me won again....WAHAHAHA....lucky me...LOL..bt overall,had a fun n nice day ytd....lol...

bt when then can i watch quarantine n bolt?????????sobs....WAHAHAHA

fall dn=weekly routine....

2008-12-06T23:44:00.002+08:00

today i was hurt again.... =( pain like kuku....sobz....my head scratched to the sharp edges n a nail...n it bleed!!!pain pain sia...haha...the pillow cant touch my head....wahahhaa...n it has caused some headache in me...humph!!haha...anw......duno is cos i old,nt enuf protein,no strength,too fat or my sickness relapse...recently my leg super no strength...climb abit nia sumtime sudd leg like jelly..then end up fell....haha...like today....so worrying....kept tinkin bt it...hmmm...

emo day today...haix...hahaha...wa...today gt a part timer hor...reli ah...haiyo!!duno wat to sae..youngsters now....haha...dun wana climb will ask u go climb..dn wan do ting will ask u do...funny de lor...weirdos~~hahaha..oopz...mean of me to sae tt...LOL...

wonder hw am i gona wash hair tmr??will i fall sick tmr?hahaha..will i wk up late tmr??dies!!hahahaha....go slp le...

nonsense....

2008-12-01T01:02:00.002+08:00

read abt the story of a lady being held hostage n realised tt life is reli reli unpredictable...i may b here happily talkin to u today,n thr,tmr,i may die...so.....cherish wat u hv got...so tt u wun regret shld one day,any day,tt person dearest to u is gone..u nv noe...mayb i might get into an accident tmr...mayb i might nt even wake up tmr..who noes??rite??

in the past,i took tings for granted...then came my granny death...it was so sudden,n unexpected...i reli duno hw to react..my action was,jz avoid the funeral...i duno y...to sae the truth,my granny dn reli dotes on me...we r nt even close..bt still....i hv tot tt in future,when i hv a gd stable job,i will be filial,so she will stopped sayin all those tings bt me...bt.....oh well...then came my frenship...tings do happen...at tt pt of time,i regretted..i tot i hv lose a fren for gd...then,then i realised i took tings for granted..i took our frenship for granted..i told myself,shld 1 day we bcame frens again,i wud definitely cherish every moments,every lil tings...i wun expect,bt jz relax~afterall,no1 wud get hurt cos thrs no expectation..

i hv learnt...jz siao siao pass my days ba...haha...i reli cherish everyting lo...nt onli my frenship w her of course,bt oso with nana etc la...my own besties n frens etc...haha..i hv learnt to tk initiatives etc...now,i dn mind makin myself stupid to mk my frens laugh...i dn mind takin intiatives to do tings..i dn mind spendin n buyin stuffs they like to eat etc...(Depends on price tho)WAHAHAHA..n my daily motto is to mk my bestie smile all day long...heeez...my dear dear besties.....i love u all!!!haha

anw...went to watch the beverly hills chihuahua with ting...tell u all ah..i booked the whole theatre lei....to watch w her...WAHAHHAHA...no ppl at all..onli we 2...hahaha..luckily nt ghost show..if nt scary sia...hahaha...i loved tt show loads..cos its abt dogs...itz cute...ahhaha...n my movie kaki oso nt tt sian sian kinda ppl..so overall,good!!haha

i loved dog dog shows...nice!!cos i love dogs...hahaha...i wana buy the 10 promises to my dogs n etc etc...wana collect all doggie shows..woohoo~~haha...i love dem...!!!n i wana buy a nike sneaker..i liked it lots...itz pink...hahaha..shld i buy it??haha...i jz bought 1 shoe last wk...hmm...*ponders*...shld continue tinkin n considering...waste of $$..haha...

tortured by wintertime staffs....

2008-11-29T00:57:00.002+08:00

today cracked the famous lil pea brain in my head tryin to squeeze the sweaters in...wa....duno to sae tired,stress or wat sia..hahaha...the peas r ripe,may open anytime...by then,probably brain dead...WAHAHAHA..ok..tryin to be stupid....

anw....u noe....ting they all torture me...cos she n yuzhen hid my rice under a big pile of thick pants...sadded...they dn wan me to eat....=( haha..i was so hungry tt i voluntarily sae i go brk..then i happily walked to the table n saw...WA....my soft shell crab...yumyum!!then i eh...whrs my rice??huh..no rice de meh??saw my mango pudding tho...then i almost wana go ask nana my set no rice de ar?hw come she so mean dn even wana help me buy rice...haha...then i stepped on one lil corner of plastic container n tada....my rice...luckily got the 'piak' sound...haha.. happily ate my rice halfway then rmb i hv gt a drink...bt...whrs my drink??haha...in front of me gt tis cup covered with tissue,the drinks r fully covered w 'soiled' tissue fr my view...then i shake shake abit then realised tts my drink..wa..sadded...look like rubbish than a pack of drink..wahahhaa....

then till the end of day then realised hidden right bhind all rubbish got a small bowl of miso soup or wateva soup which is mine..bt cold liao...forget it...!!!sadded...kena tortured badly by them....hahahahahahahahha...bleah...go slp le..nite nite....

random-ness.....

2008-11-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

recently soooooo bz.....sooooooo tired.....business soooooooooooo crazily good!!!everyday bound to OT....nw i hv sooooo many hrs to claim tt i duno how to claim sia...WAHAHAHA..can i sell them to ppl who need them??WAHAHA..ya i noe....jz being crazy....

once went out with von to watch coffin.....wa....1 more show i tink cant mk it...eh....then the nxt day went out with dardar....wooooo....so fun...so hapi la....my kuku-ness...forgetting,hmm...nope...nt forget,is din even noe the existence of the price tag on the prezzie....wa....seriously,i cant b more kuku ba...!!!hahaha...plus dar funi funi......had our dinner at shin kushiya....EXPENSIVE la...bt itz dar treat AGAIN!!!my bday,she treat..her bday,still her treat...she la....fight with me to pay...walao....paisey...haha...bt overall,i love the salmon sashimi n the drink...with abit of liquor...woohoo~~shuang dao~~~~hahaha

ytd watched movie with tingting....hahaha....reli reli hapi lo...my bestie is bk le....LOL...n today...a disastrous day...supposed to go out with kathy...bt end up went out with my nanny daughter...i spent a lot!!!bought clothes,shoes etc etc...gg broke soon!sobs...hahaha...

itz time for me to re-enrol my studies...bt im totally unsure,reli unsure of whether im able to go bk...i reli duno...i wana go bk,bt i she bu de the ppl n tings here...i she bu de my besties...she bu de my dogs...she bu de all tings....

being random la...hahaha...cos neglected my blog v long le....okok....shall end here...hope tmr de bz is ok de...nt too free tho...hahaha...

bestie

2008-11-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

im reli reli hapi cos ting started talkin to me le....fr bestie/jiemei to almost like foe,then nw to being a colleague....hahaha....at least beta than nth...i wana learn to cherish n nt expect...in tis way,she wud b happier,n i wud b happier...hahaha...fr her,i reflected a lot...i felt being my fren is a stressful ting...cos of my way of treatin my frens i guess...ppl who reli noe me,understands me,will noe hw much,reli hw much i cherish frens...even if i reli hv my mr right,i wud still put my besties 1st plc...in the past was lidat,the present wud still be,n needless to sae,the future...probably i was alone since young,probably i hv always wish for siblings...ppl who r my besties wud normally be treated as my sister...i hv always hp for older sis,to dotes on me...bt i dn,so the other way is to hv younger sis,for me to dotes on...LOL...cos i dotes on u,i wana gif/share all gd stuffs w ya....i wud treat u all gd food,i wud super teng u all,i wud gt reason no reason get prezzies...n durin bday etc,i wud get tings u wan/need...

i gt a bestie many stuffs b4,bt all nt to her likings..cos i duno wat she likes...onli noe wat she needs..bt she still uses it la...sum is out of no choice,cos nth is nice...so jz get it to fulfill wat she needs...$$ on my besties is sure no probx de...

the reason y i wrote tis post is jz to tell u all,is nt cos i like/love them (the wrong way) then treat them till lidat....is jz me!!tts hw i treat my besties...so plz dn oways tink i in love w them or wat...i love them,bt as my sisters,n nt my lover.....pls pls dn tink so much...to those ppl who suspect me..i noe u wud read my blog....so.....thanks...(referrin to sum ppl)

lotsa loves for u....

2008-10-10T22:37:00.004+08:00

went vivo today....met up with cecelia...cos wana go thr get bday prezzie...bt hor...walao...out of stock...diaoz...sadded la...hafta wait longer...bt shld nt have stayed out so long la...cos my body started to hurt again...my hand,leg,esp my back n head..haix.....reached hm onli i nt well again....tmr hw to wk??Sum more sat lei....sadded....hahaha..hp tmr will b fine....

today i wana gif lotsa lotsa loves....WAHAHAHA....hmmm.....i love dardar(bren).....i love tata honey(anita)...i love nana(elna)....i love vonvon(yvonne)...i love booboo(ruobin)....i love ping(feng ping)....i love xuanie(rong xuan)....i love mama(mabel)....i love dearie(khadijah).....hahaha....i love many many many ppl....do u all love me????HEEX.....

anw...i watched house bunny today...so nice show....itz a funi show...very funi show....kuku show...bimbo show...LOL....then i wana watch the guard post..honey...wana go watch tog ma???or u watchin w ya fren??hehehehe....

哈啤！！

2008-10-06T23:11:00.002+08:00

今天我的honey来找我吃饭。等她到我快饿死了。哈哈哈。幸好我肥肉多少都有些帮助。我们去sakae吃buffet咯。哈哈。yumyum。但她还是一样，什么都‘给她honey=我吃’哈哈哈。可怜的我就吃到超饱。哈哈。但我鼓起勇气告诉她我不见了她的情书。哈哈哈。她要再给我写一个。我又很开心了。起初好不开心咯。我不见了那张，是她说她把所有要说的话，加上她感情加点emo进去写的。当然会伤心啦。=( 幸好她niam两句后就说要写给我。谢谢你honey。爱死你了。muack muack muack！！！哈哈哈哈。honey真好！跟我dardar一样好。哈哈。期待那封信哦！哈哈。my honey=anita

我还不知道要买哪一个。可爱的？还是style点的？你喜欢哪个啊？哈哈哈。我知道dardar ok with pink 的吧！slimy pink。dar，对不起。不是故意不陪你过生日的，是因为eddie有事。不要不高兴好吗？我会找一天弥补你的！

我miss nana lei。。哈哈。。nanananananananananananananana.....banana.....hahahhaa... nananananana...nananananana...不要太miss我，你一定很期待我回去的。哈哈哈哈。我好无聊lei。明天我跟kathy做。11-12一个人，8pm onwards又是我一个。。哈哈。希望会忙，不然闷死了。哈哈。我会成为化石。哈哈哈哈。。

bday...

2008-10-04T01:17:00.002+08:00

tt day enjoyed gg out with dardar on my bday....hmmm...i gona wait aft celebrating hers den i post tog ba...lol....cos wana put photos n stuff......dar....u qi dai yr PINK slimy stuff ma??WAHAHAHAHAHAHA...i noe u do....i noe u do!!!WAHAHAHAHA....be sure to treasure it aft u hv received it!!!LOL...tink wud b yr best prezzie eva...cos itz pink...itz slimy.....thick.....sumting u oways been craving for....dn at one time use all ar....WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....bleah dar!!nani nani pupu...u cant beat my pipi....*shake pipi*WAHAHAHA.....jialak...our inside craps i post online le....lol...every1 noe hw kuku n childish im le...hahaha..bt for dar....itz ok!!!LOL...

many many days updates all tog...lol

2008-09-30T23:02:00.007+08:00

long post today..cos i gona summarised everyting in a post....lol...

today marks the 2nd mth of my jiemei n me nt talkin le....in this case of draggin n draggin,i hv the feelin tt we wun eva b frens again...i actually purposely call to talk to her on my off day...n even wanted to buy food for her..bt...she chose nt to talk to me,n she rejected my offer thru msg la...so...nana..call her oso lidat...sumtime i tink ya...she does dotes on me a lot,tk 4 examples these 2 mths...can feel tt la...probably she gan ga ba..probably she shy...i duno...bt i feel so sian doin all this n she givin no rxn at all..if she reacted,at least i felt sth..bt no wor..i may sae i dn bother bt actualli i still does..i jz sumhw wana stop le,bt at the same time,my heart felt so reluctant to do so..

tt time when she chatted w me in msn,i was reli hapi la..reli over the moon...BUT...itz onli for 1 day..actualli i was reli tired de,wana go slp,bt i chose to stay online...LOL...bt nw i dn wana go online as often le..even if i do,i wud appear offline..hahaha...nobody to chat with..all my didi dada kakis nt ard de...lol...duno la...so...any1 lookin for me can jz talk to me la...most prob online de...hahahaha..

anw...talk abt anita...hahaha...29th marks her last day at wintertime...we went singing,bought her a cake...in a way enjoyed ourselves...bt the ting,she nt emo enuf....LOL.....i reli enjoyed workin w her la...very fun...very nice....hahahaha...very funi at times...esp with the vacuum cleaner...n workin w her makes me gain lotsa weight la!!!!hahahaha...

bt HONEY!!!I MISS U A LOT..!!!!hahaha...honey no longer wkin le...im so alone le....sumtimes so angry with sum funi pple....sumtime so amused....honey...dn wori!!thrs sum1 who is more kuku with vacuum than u le....u ranked number 2 nw!!WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..bleah!!!

recently alr quite used to workin in pp,with lao da etc..i dn hv the 'drag myself to wk' feelin le...hahaha...hmm...of course i miss suntec...bt sumtimes due to certain circumstances,i jz felt abit ai mai ai mai to go bk thr...hahaha...mayb cos i feel strange thr...duno lei...hahaha...anw...tell u all a joke...our dear lao da ar...hahaha...told me gt 1 customer wana buy 3LY cotton for aircon use...end up let him persuade until customer buy 100% wool LJ lor...kua zhang anot?wahaha.. then we,as his ka kia,all oso 不择手段..die die push cashmere stuff...LJ,sweater,coats,scarf... everyting...can push one we push...wahahhaa..even if the plc they r gg de nt tt cold...wahahaha...we very mean rite??hahaha...we all managed to sell quite a number of men cashmere LJ lo..to me la..i felt like quite afew le...hahaha...

HONEY!!!when den we can go eat our buffets???Watch our movies???etc etc??hahaha...bt hapi to c honey today for a short short while..LOL...anw honey...kathy sae our shop upstair duno whr gt sell yr 吉祥物lei...the pretty wawa u hv...lol....i told her i wana buy 1 then put in shop...to disturb eddie!!WAHAHAHAHA...mayb bring luck lei...hahaha...nola...jz sae sae nia...LOL...

i wana watch connected.....i wana watch chaser....i wana watch quarantine....i wana watch many other shows....the person i oways hv in mind to watch with me de no longer will b my movie kaki le...at 1st i tot of tryin to ask her de...bt fr tt day tues her rxn,i can tell..nope....!!hahaha..so any1 kind n good enuf to pei me watch??dn wana watch alone la..so kelian...hahaha...u all ar...so bz de..work de work...study de study....pa tuo de pa tuo...hahaha..left ke lian me alone...hahaha...

i miss u all la...i miss booboo la...when we gg out ar??tt time u asked me le den u sudd offline...humph!!haha...dar...qi dai gg out w u!!!von....when gg out sia??6th i cant...hahaha... ping,xuanie....hw u all???all bu jian lidat...haha..zhenbei lei??hahaha..then oso my baobei..she oso very bz...wk n wk..c..being a nurse is no ez business..lol..hmm...wa...nw i so xing fu...i gt honey,gt dardar,gt baobei,gt dear,gt mummy...LOL...last time gt dar-lingz de..bt nw no more le..n tink we no longer will be....=( am i sayin to much??hmm...

vacuum..hahaha

2008-09-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

i purposely came to post a short post...noe on wat???on SOMEONE hu dont noe hw to use a vacuum cleaner...im nt sayin hu la....WAAHAHAHHA..bleah!!ask me whr is the power plug etcetc lei....aiyo..mk me laugh n laugh..........hahahahahahha.....

hapi me...

2008-09-14T12:06:00.002+08:00

im so so so so hapi la....hahaha...cos tingting left me a frenster comment...tho is nt she talk de la....still......im hapi....im over the moon...so kua zhang rite....haha...i miss talking to her..lol

ok...out of 23 days in pp,i hv alr past 11 days le..WAHAHAHA...im left with 12 days...HOPEFULLY.....!!!hahaha...pp nt dn like,is probably i cant adapt very easily to the environment ba...plus so boring thr...no customers....hahaha...actualli if im given a chance,i wun wana go thr lor...hahaha...

hpthrs a day when u will talk to me again!!hahaha

sianz...

2008-09-09T23:06:00.002+08:00

im sick...tired...n bored!!hahaha....i miss suntec,until c doc oso muz go suntec...WAHAHAHA..of course no la...Naza sae the doc thr cheap,unlike my hse tt clinic,tt cost me $60...hahaha...in the end,i spent $32 wor...still ex ba...bt better than here de...lol...

i miss tingting....can we b frens again??can we talk again??can i go back suntec wk??

anyway,im gg dn to suntec on my coming off day...b4 tt,i hafta go pp thr buy mooncake for they all to eat...hahaha...tingting i guess she wud eat the durian de ba....hahaha...nana oso wanted the durian one...bt i hafta wake up early to buy lo..cos they very early sold out le...bt then hor..i hafta come bk kallang eat my red egg mee sua..cos....itz my CHINESE bday!!!yay!!!HAHAHA...diao...hahaha....

bday wishes...

2008-08-31T23:07:00.002+08:00

u noe...ytd i was really happy...cos ting talked to me....although is reluctantly...she still chose to talk....im so happy lor....im reli very contented le....hahaha....i was so overjoyed tt i dn feel down ytd.....thr is 0.01% of improvement btn me n ting meimei...LOL...im so happy....hahaha...then she ate the ting i bought....bt earlier when i saw her expression,she was starin at cecelia,n talkin to me reluctantly...bt itz ok....n at least when i talked to her,she still gt luk at me,nt like last few weeks lidat le...haha..im reli happy...i dn mind dying jz to get her friendship back...probably im crazy,probably i too kua zhang,bt tts my character ba...sth tt i cant reli change much...esp to my besties...probably cos im still unattached ba...bt i tink la,even if im attached le,i wud still zhong shi frens as much...esp my besties....

u noe...cos thr is tt lil improvement,im worried tt this mth in pp,our frenship wud then go bk to the same zibi situation again..i very scare wor...is thr sum way for me to maintain the 0.01% improvement??i reli dn wish to go bk..

can bday wish be more than 1??if can....i wud like to sae....

1) Naza n cecelia wud b frens n talk again...esp tt naza...dn be so stubborn...haha
2)all my besties n frens to be happi....
3)i wud hv enuf $$ to go back sydney study....
4)i wud excel in my studies,career...
5)my personalities n character wud change...esp those that ting pointed out de...
6)my family to be fine n good...
7)nt stay perm workin at pp la...cos i prefer suntec...i wud miss the ppl thr,like lao na,ting etc...

8)to find my Mr Right la...apparently,the fortune teller told me aft my 22nd bday(english version-sept 15),my mr right wud appear...HOPEFULLY lor...hahahhaa

9)to he hao with wang teng...although i noe the possibilities is equivalent to zero.....(am i reli sucha bad person?)

i dn need any bday prezzies....the above 1-7 wud be my gd prezzies le... Number 8 is a best prezzie....i have 1 yr to mk it come true....hopefully the fortune teller is telling the truth...LOL

OF COURSE,my BEST n biggest n happiest bday present for tis yr wud be number 9.... i hope she wud gimme a chance...to talk to me n befriend me again....eh....back to the old days...i reli miss them...sobs....bt i noe.....she wun de...bt dn wori...i will persevere de...i wun give up de...

yupz....tt shld b all....i will definitely miss nana n ting ting de.....=(...sae until like i dyin...wahahhaa...hmm...imagine everyday hafta travel 1 hr to wk,hafta bring umbrella,cant slp more(hafta wake up 1/2 earlier)...more n more like panda le....sianz....hahaha...okla...go slp le...tmr is another day...inc nxt mth,i cant/nv talked to ting for abt 2mths...sobs...bt dn wori ting...i wun force u de...u tk care k...hugz...

updates........

2008-08-31T22:54:00.003+08:00

hmm..today went pc show...then i saw the onda mp5...wa...hmm...very tempting to get it,bt dn luk reliable tho it has jay zhou signature bla bla....selling at $240...then i saw tv phone....very popular lor...diu....selling at $240 as well..supposed to find disc,bt i saw none...probably i cud nt c...i hv been rounding thr so many times wor....+ oso to find my fren la..wahaha....

then i went aigo...saw tt mp5....i hv decided to buy tt le.....cfm + chop!!hahaha...buay tahan le...tts the ting when pay comes...u spend a lot....if tts the case,i hafta sell my mp4 nw...hu can i sell to??rocky???LOL..at least can save up abit...hahaha...or shld i sa jiao with my dad,c if he willin to donate sum $ for me to invest...i tink he will kill me!!haha...cos he knew i jz bought the mp4 nt long ago...hw???hahaha...hmm....4gt to ask hw much lor...stupid me..scully $400 i die..tink i will hafta sell my digi cam...WAHAHA..hmm...met up with zhenbei n her mum...hahaha...her mum very teng me one..haha..until nw still rem me...kp askin zhen bei hw am i etc...so swt hor...hahaha

ok...tmr will be my 1st day at parkway...countdown....29days more....shall update briefly every nw n then...lol...why every1 tink i wun eva go bk to suntec le??reli ar??i scare wor..hopefully nt... =( hahahaha..

stories.......

2008-08-27T21:50:00.004+08:00

那天去了parkway，就认识了anita..我们聊了好多好多..发现我们的喜好是一样的.真是有趣.哈哈..她那天还特地打去suntec找我.刚才还msg我笑我明天又去pp.真坏.哈哈.她以为我小过她咯.哈哈.没想到,我看起来那么年轻.哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈.蛮合得来.哈哈

我好想念婷婷..虽然好象每天都看到她,但就好象没和她做工.好想念以前的日子...我为什么那么烂的呢?哎呀!但我要证明给你看我对你这个妹妹用的真心是不需要任何回报的,就算你不想接受我帮忙,不感动我对你做的,我被伤到也不要紧,我会为我们友谊坚持到底的!婷永远都会是我好友,好姐妹!!=)hugz n loves..我会永远疼你的！can sum1 tell me how to change???哈哈 ...

对了.我看了12lotus和4bia 了.12lotus不好看,听anita说老大也说不好看.哈哈.但4bia我和我朋友都觉得好看,又好笑,又有点恐怖.哈哈.anita比我前一天去看嘛.然后隔天就打给我,告诉我好看.哈哈.她说她在看那部电影时,一直想到我.哈哈.真是的!!哈哈.真可爱..改次有什么恐怖片等就能一起去看了..新的电影kaki..LOL...

上个星期,von和我原本要去newton吃宵夜的,没想到他们关咯.浪费油,时间等.哈哈哈..还关三四天呢..因为鬼节要清洗..什么理由嘛..到最后,我们去了old kallang airport吃.叫了那么多,尤其是那个超大螃蟹.逼我吃整整半只,害得我晚上睡不着,太饱了.哈哈哈.

可怜的我,在吃我那半只螃蟹...饱死了...哈哈哈...

我们吃的那只大螃蟹....大过我的手咯...哈哈哈...想它还有脚...更大只了..哈哈..

处女ｖｓ摩羯

2008-08-27T01:33:00.002+08:00

处女座ｖｓ摩羯座（ｍｅ　ｎ　ｔｉｎｇ）

ｉｔｚ　ｒａｔｈｅｒ　ｔｒｕｅ．．ｔｔｓ　ｙ　ｉｗａｎａ　ｐｏｓｔ　ｈｅｒｅ．．ｌｏｌ．．．

在处女座和摩羯座之间的第一种牢固的关系是他们都想做高尚的人的需要。他们避免自己成为笑柄，受人尊敬的办法是做到品行端正，因此他们说话做事尽可能的符合规范。这两个人之间第二种有力的关系是对使用钱的态度，审慎节约的花，绝对不会浪费或粗心的乱丢。他们之间另一种有力的关系是对待义务和责任的方式。如没有责任，他们会迷失自己，失去目标。应该给他们郑重的信任，需履行的义务，需完成的责任。他们共同拥有的另一东西是良好的同感。他们有聪明的头脑。处女座总知道什么是正确的。摩羯座则喜欢沉默，从不发表意见或认同什么，除非他们用较长的时间仔细的思考——反之，水星，处女座的支配者，使得他们相当快的说出自己的意见。摩羯座其实热情，他们是具有清醒的头脑，敏锐的领悟力，判断灵敏有力的男女。他们分析每种感觉，然后说他们根本不是那样（那是因为他们分析你对他们的分析结果）。

摩羯座在处女座的态度上发现不了错误，处女座把时间和注意力放在解决问题上。对摩羯座人来说，这实在太谨慎了。摩羯座表现一种奇特的独立。当障碍出现，摩羯座只是跨过它，稳定攀越他们目标的顶峰。这就是为什么土星支配的人们有时表现的冷漠和不热情的原因——他们对压力和紧张缺乏外在的反应，他们认为情感的表现没有必要。许多日宫不了解这样一种态度，错误的理解他，然而处女座本能的知道，在泰然自若的铁面下，摩羯座真是心碎，而摩羯座悲哀的感激处女座的同情。同样，当其他人认为处女座挑剔，大惊小怪和神经质时，摩羯座感觉到处女座心中藏着温和的梦和渴望，需要这样的逃避，即仍在沉默寡言和羞怯的表情下坚决保持克制。摩羯座知道这种感受，因为他们也同样如此。他们要表达这种渴望实在太难了。

处女座宣称喜欢一个人呆着，摩羯座知道这决不是真的，一旦他们知道你是多健谈。很多时候你是多么空虚，你只是从容的掩盖你的孤独以防那些只会嘲笑你的人。是的，摩羯座清楚的知道处女座需要假装很自足，把这当作避免伤害的方式。处女座和摩羯座身上有某种可爱而温和的东西，似乎暗中使他们在一起。有许多次处女座认为摩羯座太固执，拘泥于他（她）的方法，拒绝让步或屈服于心理刺激的兴奋，有许多次摩羯座认为处女座忧虑太多，谈论事情过度。虽然如此，他们两个相似的地方远比不同的多，相容的比不相容的多。同感的5-9宫型使他们更容易联系和原谅彼此的过错。

three frenz...lol....song...

2008-08-18T00:19:00.003+08:00

hahaha...i reli like tis song.....frenz.....三人...

i miss ting,my sis...

2008-08-15T02:31:00.002+08:00

i hv been tinking a lot tho...i miss ting...she is everyday in front of me,bt she treated me as tho im transparent....i miss the good old times......i miss her being funi with us,inc me...i miss her talkin to me,jokin with me,playing with me etc....i mis her...whr is my sis??like missing...cos she no longer talks to me,no longer bothers abt me,no longer treated me as b4...sumtimes i tink the way i do tings like v si can lan da lidat...bt if i dn,wat else can i do??i reli do wan the frenship back...i wan my meimei bk..can u come bk??=(

sad....tired...sicked!!!

2008-08-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

recently in my dictionary,onli these words appear: sick,stress,nervous,tired,sian,pek chek,gona beng kui,zi bi,scare,sad,upset,disappointed n fake....im so sick n tired of all this stuff.....cant tings jz end alright??cant u gimme a easier way to settle??i hv alr tried my very very best....u r always avoiding me...nt allowing me to have my chance....the ting i gona do nw shall reli b the very last one...if thr is still no reciprocal,then.....itz ok....cos by then,thr wud onli b jue wang,shi wang n shang xin... yeah... then tho i reli wan our ship,tho i appreciate it a lor..i wud jz remain stagnant...i guess....hv u eva appreciated the lil tings i hv done,jz like the way i do?? nw even my colleague tinks tt im v shi bai,very disappointed in me le....y m i doin all tis tings???i duno la...haix...

a day in vivo with ting...lol

2008-06-24T23:59:00.003+08:00

went out with tingting today....supposed to mit at 12pm,end up become nearly 2pm..so kuku....no schedule of whr to go...hahaha...we went marche for our lunch(her treat),then we went to look for her lappie stuff..ooo....sayin abt tt...my mum helped her student sell a sony vaio lappie ma...then i come to noe tt ting wanted one,so i asked her la..hahaha...negotiated the price with my mum...actually she insisted on reducing by $100 onli..then ting kept askin when to collect her lappie...diao...haha..like scare i will cheat her lidat..haha..so the nxt day aft worked she came over to my place la..stayed over...hahaha...funi nite tho...hahaha...

we bought a laptop case,a mouse n notebook cooler...hope shes happy with it...hahaha...the case n mouse initial price was $99 n $89 respectively...duno y thr is sucha offer at $39 each...wa...hahaha...anw..aft tt we went walking ard then went to catch a movie...you dn mess with zohan...kuku show...went winter time awhile b4 we go hm..short day rite??ahahha...i find it short too!!hahaha...wat a short off day....LOL

then we were jokin abt COWS....ooooo....hahaha...we 2 tis mth so many off days tog,bt nxt mth 1 same off day oso bo...hahahahahhaha...is like i off today,she off tmr..sth lidat...hahahaha...kuku de...lol...okla....overall today still okok...hahahaha

kungfu panda.........happenings to me!!

2008-06-18T00:53:00.003+08:00

today....finally i get to watch kungfu panda....LOL....ting volunteered to watch with me...hahaha... tho i guess she dun reli wana watch de ba..hahaha...then i asked how eng along...hahaha...so kuku...aft wk we rushed to GV marina to watch lor....very funi show...kuku show...lamey show...hahahaha...no wonder sooo many ppl praised the show...hahaha...i laughed my heart out...hahaha...today thru-out the day was also a good day...hahaha...fun working...lol...laughing n laughing...same for the past few days...hahaha...=)

since last wed,i hasn't been feeling well...nausea,bone ache,fever...then come thursday onwards...diarrhea the whole day until today...almost a week...everyday lidat...it turned out tt i started to shh shh fr the back......until ytd then my nanny mentioned tt i might be suffering from gastric flu...bt oh well...they treated me...n here im...fine n well again!!lol...my secondary immune system begin workin i guess...LOL...bt im almost dehydrated....reli is 'green face white lips'...hahaha...in chinese idiom...

wah..jialak man...seems to me tt elna n ting noes my personality well..cham le...all my ruo dian they noe le...ohoh...hahahha...well well...nth much le....jz update for fun..wana rest le....

不开心的两个星期。。

2008-06-09T02:35:00.003+08:00

最近心情好坏喔！我的室友都想害死我。那样对我喔。我最近一直给人骂。每天都打来。我开始有了恐惧。看到我家打来的，我就好怕好怕咯。怎么这样啊？我好害怕。我不想接的，但又不能喔。我好想找朋友诉苦，但我又找不到。那一天，他从十点骂到三点咯。什么家人!选择相信外人。就最近都要崩溃了。我真的好辛苦咯。还要装没事，还不能大声地哭。我真的没想太多咯。他真的是那样说的。他说我是多余的，应该死掉咯。有时好想有一个人在旁听我说，我那一天一直一直哭，每晚都睡不着，睡不好。我很怕会被骂，那应该是因为我不喜欢争吵吧！每次一被骂，我心里的怕回来了。会令我想起以前的事喔。我就会感觉没安全感，很空虚。但你们都不了解，只会说我想太多。一些安慰的话都没有！我有多害怕你懂吗？我现在真的很累了！为什么有你在我生命里？为什么我都没有家的温暖的？

我好开心以为真的能看到bren了。但她又不能meet我了。最近在我身上发生了很多不开心的事，婷不了解我，以为终于能和bren见面了，这样我有了我好朋友的hugs.心里会比较舒服，没那么害怕了。但她又不能meet了。我没生气啦。只是我期待的那一个hug都没了！我几时才能有个很棒的hug呢？有时不需要说什么，就抱一下我就开心了。因为至少懂有人疼我。我心情也轻松多了。我觉得如果真的有人那么做，我会哭的。因为我忍很久了。只想大哭一下。

我以为能去看kungfu panda的，现在不能了。我还很开心的告诉大家我终于能和我最好的朋友见面了。我多么的期待，因为我要我好友的hug，也要见见面啦。只有她了解我吧！我觉得啦。为了她，我都拒绝和von n ting看咯。现在呢？都不见面了。找我吃个饭也好嘛。

我希望我家人不会又打来骂我，伤我自尊。我相信我比野狗来的好吧！不要再说我连野兽都不如了好吗？到现在，虽然我外表很开心，但其实我还是好不开心的。我很想躲起来，不要和任何人再伤我。我想当一只乌龟，害怕时，能躲在自己的壳里。我好怕以前的事又会发生在我身上。我受不了了。怎么办？救救我好不好？我现在的感觉就是一个人而已。真的感觉到很无助喔。这种怕着过日子的生活我快要受不了了。二十二年了。够了。累了。我真正的开心到底在哪里？真的有人把我当家人吗？有人把我当好友吗？我好怕，好乱喔！

我真的很想抱着我好友痛哭一场，然后就好了。真的！='(

gan dong...genting updatea postpone..

2008-05-08T01:30:00.002+08:00

hmm...i wana update gentin stuff lei...but hor...i wana wait for the pics....easier....von..faster send me the pics....shall wait then!!will update de..no worries k von!!hahaa

anw.juz bought a new cam...so tempting...actually wana get T300,but in the end got T70.oso not bad la...me n jia ying got the same one...onli diff is hers pink,mine white...hahahaha...

shall update briefly la...actually,nth much la...hmm...i sick...hmm...boring life....hmmm...wana mit out with boo they all...nv c them for thousands of years liao...ahahahha...wana go hol...the hol ting promised to go...no time to go lo...hmm....ting...u wana go hol???hahahaha...booboo...wana go anot??tt time talked halfway abt gg...hmm...xuanie n ping oso....all half half...hahaha...i miss u all!!

all along,ting dn make me feel like she treated me as her good fren...but recently,thru the lil lil tings she did made me realised tt i was wrong...tho it may b lil stuff,the thoughtfulness is thr..the care is there...so touched...so gan dong lor...

the other time when i juz came bk fr genting,my mouth swell..too dry,cracked as well...then was wondering which lip balm to get(fr my shop la)..asked every1 for opinion..but all gave diff one..hence,i decided to go guardian n hv a look during my break...then when ting went for her break,i went to the ladies,afterwhich i juz popped into guardian n hv a look...i saw this lip balm tt i wanted..i meant the brand..vaseline...quite useful for my lips...went bk to store,saw ting eating in the store..then she asked me to go in awhile,then she gave me the lipbalm i wanted..im like.... .....duno wat to sae lor....i was wonderin y she know wat brand i wanted ma...yuan lai is cos i mentioned tt the lip balm i used in aussie is good,n the brand is tt..then she knew..(i guess so...)haha...anw...gan dong lor...simple tings...but hw many of yr frens will do tt??

when i feel down,she oways wanted me to speak out..dn wan me to kp it in my heart...n when she doesn't noe hw to console me,she oways sae she mei yong etc....reli is 傻傻小妹咯！！哈哈。rem the duckie she bought for me?i felt xing fu to hv sucha good fren lo..but i quite bad la..she bo lui alr...i still wanted her to get a lappie b4 i go bk aussie...hahaha...she oways so kuku n cute de...Thanks ting ting...thanks for the stuff u do..i appreciated it a lot...n will rem them for life de... =)

sista...

2008-04-15T00:46:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA...recently bz with stuffs...with wat???of course work la...thru the phone,many would find it difficult to recognise ting n my voice...they oways wu hui de ar...they sae we sound alike...diao rite???hahaha..then now worse...today went daniel yam ar...cos ting wana get a dress ma...for wedding dinner...then we went in thr...aft sum tries,the person sae i so good,pei my elder sis choose dress...then i tot i hear wrongly...then she sae...r we sister??or good frens??hahaha..then we replied...gd frens la...then the sales fella sae..oh..she tot we sista..cos we look alike...eye,nose and the way we smile...very alike...diao...hahahahah..then she sae i look like YOUNGER sis,ting is OLDER sis lor...sooooooo funi...WAHAHAHAHA...till nw i still cant stop laughin at ting lo...wahahhaa...

me n ting ting lo...the most recent pic taken...LOL...jiejie(on yr right) n meimei(on yr left)..

the other time oso...ting wana go bangkok ma...then i showed her a news paper article regarding handling contact lenses ar...then i sae go bangkok dn use tap water to wash the len case la..she sae wun la...cos she will be using disposable PANTIES wor...WAHAHAHAHAH...kuku rite...she ar.....hahahaha.....okla...go orh orh le....nite nite...

a letter to my ting ting...n events happening...

2008-03-21T01:43:00.003+08:00

我失恋了.好伤心喔.使终朋友还是最好!

阿婷人好好喔.就好感动有她这么好的朋友..好感动她所做的一切..我说我要鸭鸭,她就去买给我.. 我就随口说我想吃一个kuey,她还真的买给我吃喔。。婷婷，你真的好好喔。。谢谢你的友谊，你的疼！！我觉得我好福气有你这个好友，好妹妹！！

就要你知道就算大家看不起你，说你的坏话，不喜欢你，伤害你，你都别去理他。对我来说，你是我的聪明妹妹，是一个我觉得又棒又坚强又独立又好好的人。无论发生什么事，我都是站在你这里的。就算没人信你，我还是会信你的。我会为我们的友谊付出101%的。我爱你喔，我的妹妹，我的好友！！我一定会好疼好疼你的！！哈哈哈哈哈哈！！

my topic...frenship...i hv learnt a lot recently abt frens..once,GM asked me watz my definition of best fren..i reli duno wat to ans...hw do i define fren,good fren n best fren???

i told her based on my gut feelings...i duno...so many good frens,all wrongly chosen...hmm...ppl..im nt as good as u all tink de....to sae the truth...i reli duno hw to define...to me...ppl i tok to...consider my frens le...good frens...ppl i joke ard with..best fren....sum1 hu care for me,noe me inside out,n i noe her/him too...sum1 whom i wud confide in whenever im feeling miserable n sad..nw...i hv 2 best fren...ting n bren... u noe...jiaying seems to noe me better than the rest..she noe my character reli well...assca too...!!they r reli good at observing ppl lo..scary...lol....

guess wat....since ytd until today 10+,i was an illegal immigrant lor...finally nw ok le...if nt hw??i sure jialak...scary lo....hahahaha..anw xuanie...hw???r we gg for our trip???lol...wana go trips with u all....year end planned to go taiwan or HK...wana go??i gt 2 takers currently...

ting ting n me...shes my hao meimei,hao peng you!!!

yupz..gona go slp liao...gotta wk tmr....shall post the rest another day..sleepy le...nite nite..!! =)

photos....

2008-03-05T00:46:00.006+08:00

I love tis watch...Adidas de...heh heh heh....i treasure it loads...guess why???

cos itz from my dardar bren bren lo...heex...

tis one lei...my ah siao sista...我的好友婷婷。。

这是鸭鸭。。我最爱的。可爱吗？哈哈。。它是我最爱的婷婷送的。

它是三月二号出世的。哈哈。我也好珍惜它喔！

这是EP wintertime..那一天是个难忘的一天。

这是当天我们四人好“玩”的一天

me,assca and wang teng...ting ting soooo ghostly lo...hhahaha

jo,me and rachel...

baby hannah...sucha smart girl...love her loads...

my cousin...love her!!

2008-03-02T02:16:00.002+08:00

im nt gg to study for a yr liao....but...but...y isit that sumhw i feel like gg back le???y in the 1st plc i wana suspend???i duno wat to do lo...hvn cancel my flight..hvn submit my form as well..hmm...i duno la...!!!suddenly feel so tired...wana go bk study liao..hw man??wat to do?

fan ar...!!!hahahaha...i reli wan the duck....shld i buy it tmr at build a bear?????i shld i shld!!!!hahahaha....im nt wkin for the whole of nxt week...hafta settle sch stuff etc...mon gg to chk eyesight,fax stuff etc....then tue gg out...hahaha...

FAN ah!!!FAN ah!!!FAN ah!!!!

nth much..lazy me...

2008-02-28T00:44:00.002+08:00

im getting weaker n weaker each day....reli reli reli very tired...hahahaha...now im so puzzled as to go study now or nxt yr...suspending study is fine,bt when i tot of the reason y i stopped abit weird...isit rite to suspend or jz go bk???bt economically,facing a lil probz,bt can b solved if my dad dn invest...duno hw...wat to do man?haix...烦啊！！

finally a off day tmr....hahahahaha...hapi hapi...hmm..then tmr gona go mit wei yee,my hsemate for coffee...dn even noe wat to tell her,or wat to sae...hmm....sian...hahahaha...im confused nw...shld i go bk study???

sadded....suddenly i realised tt so many ppl nt gona wk anymore...haix...then watz the point of stayin???hw?wat to do???hmm...auntie fr tampines called me...wan me go tampines stay if i stay on...for a moment,it seems all arranged by God...lol...i got lotsa stuff to sae,bt lazy...tired...lol....anw..today elna n ting ting come bk liao..hurray!!!nt so quiet in shop le...bt my last day approaching...hmm....

i miss workin in EP with baoyun(kat brother),leonard n anna....fun times oways gone fast!! ='(
working in suntec during these 2 days sudd mk me feel sooooo.......diao...hahahahaha...so many prob start to surface liao....hmm...internal fights esp....sianz lor....haix....sad....i jz din go suntec wk for a week 2 days....so many tings....=(

我累了。。。。。

2008-02-24T01:14:00.003+08:00

今天我外婆真的真的离开我们了。从不在家人面前哭泣的我今天忍不了了。我和我表妹，jolene,说好不能太emo..但当我看见我外婆，想到生前很吵的她等我就已经要流泪了。我还是忍着，直到我大姨大声地哭，说新年没得见到她，吃她煮的食物等，我就流泪了。jolene也是咯。看着她被推进火场时，我又再次的哭了。说走就走了，都没流下什么流言。如果她能听到恩喜(baby hannah)一直在叫她，不知她会有多么的开心咯。我没了外婆。好伤心，好难过。Ah ma,rest in peace,i will oways rem u...

我真的好累好累。。累了，很想休息，一个人过这个无聊的人生。不想一直烦我朋友。。经神上累了，心灵上也累了，就整个人都好累好累。想出国走走，但一个人，又能去哪里呢？='(
最近又需要做工，又不能在suntec做。。想念suntec的朋友，同事。

今天在eastpoint和anna,leonard还有kat弟弟做工还蛮好玩的。就不会想到外婆等。哈哈。好期待星期三和bren出去看戏。想睡了，晚安。

伤心的我，多谢有你们。。。

2008-02-22T13:14:00.003+08:00

好伤心喔。。我外婆去世了。就这样她走了。最近我都好烦好烦。我不是一个好家人，也不是一个好朋友。我对自己的要求很高。我好不开心。觉得我是个坏人，只会让我周围的人生气，伤心。你们都以为我不关心吗？我最在乎的就是我周围的人了。

最近我都好庆幸我有个好朋友，有几个好同事。如果不是你们，我早就崩溃了。婷婷，你人真的很好，谢谢你的安慰。我真的真的好感动。我一直烦你，打扰你，找你，你都没说我。你真好。好爱你喔，我的好朋友，好婷婷妹妹。不知道我会不会回australia,但我会永远记得你这个好友。你是我最棒的朋友了。希望你和elna会很enjoy韩国。

elna,谢谢你的关心。assca,谢谢你那天陪我一起哭，安慰我。xin jie,u oso..thanks for yr care and concern.. Pei lin,我也很高兴有你这个朋友。谢谢你们大家。爱你们大家。

HAPI CNY....

2008-02-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

1st of all...HAPI CNY to all folks....lol...

wah...reli suay lor....i fell ill on eve...fever,sore throat,flu,cough n bodyache..=(
pop in lotsa medicine..finally,felt better today...bt cud nt slp...cos too sick...last 2 days,...sick like kuku...

today went ah ma hse bai nian...wa...ang bao received far more than i expected...n itz been a looong time since i last saw hannah,my bb cousin...oh man...shes soooo smart n cute....n shes nt afraid of us...the last time i saw her is like when shes 5 mths old..nxt time post her photos here...lol...

my dogs fight again...jz...cos my mum provoked kiki la...then kiki kp making lotsa noises,then aft tt the 'ren wu ke ren' boxer jz attack boxer...n my dad injured...hmm...bren...so hw??mon whr u wana go??haha..do get bk to me sooon....thankie...

bad feeling...

2008-02-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

ytd how eng,jia ying n assca went back malaysia...wah...i hv the sad sad feeling lo...u noe hw it feels???itz jz like me leaving aussie...then today is ting's turn to go bk...so sad...cant c them for abt a wk lor..sad sad...no1 for me to disturb le..or shld i sae...no1 to disturb me...lol...last yr..when i returned,i hv 1 bestie to she bu de...now...i hv another 1 le..of course...the rest of my frens...i oso got and will she bu de la..needless to sae rite...hahaha...

anw...my flight cfm le...march 4th...=(..AHHH....how??how???i dun wana go bk lei...haix....bt my uni alr asked me to pay sch fee,enrolled me le...n oso asked me to collect my 2008 student card...too bad im nt thr....hahaha..wonder hw to guo my 9mths thr....haix...sum1...come sydney hol lei....or go gold coast..cos i wana go as well...lol..hmm...mabel mama sae she will come visit me during my sem brk in june...lol...few more days shes gg brisbane le,yet i cant send her...sori...bt cya soon ok??heh..miss ya....

nw i alr started to miss tingting and the rest le...=( haha

off day....

2008-01-31T00:22:00.000+08:00

hmm...sian days for me...off day...nth to do...came hm...rot ard...eat a lot...play with my 2 dogs...watch tv...rot sum more...then nw...ready to slp...y hv my life become so meaningless?? cant mit bren bren liao...came bk for sooo long,onli met her once at the airport,went out once,came look for me makan once(abt 1hr) then 11 feb last time...then i will be gg bk aussie le...reli cant tahan the lonely life thr lor...wat to do??!!sianz..

heard tt the bus system here gona change like sydney kind soon..hahaha...hmm..my sem for sem2 wud end on 22 nov...which means i MAY return anytime earlier than 22 Nov la...yeah!!!i can c all my frens by then...hapi hapi....look 4ward lo...

hmm..i planned to live alone aft my contract ends on 21st july...wana go unilodge...hahaha...tho ex..since they sae they hv $$...then nvm la...dn care...today my parents psycho me go aussie lor..i came bk dn wana tok abt it,yet they kept blabbering..sianz...wat to do??haix....i can onli mit bren 1 more time...can c ting ting n elna for no more than 8 times...hahaha...n the rest for less than a mth...sadz...=(

SAD SAD SAD and SAD...

2008-01-22T00:55:00.000+08:00

another day of wk...but itz a SAD SAD SAD day...got scolded like SHIT by HER!reli reli hate her...i duno wat i hv done in the past to deserve sucha present life...but im reli touched by my colleagues...they r all good ppl...all my angels...my good good frens...when im sad,they consoled me..other than bren bren,no1 eva been so good to me...reli thx assca,jia ying n ting ting...love u all loads..HAHAHA..im oways tryin to cover my sadness,trouble with laughter..bt today i reli cant ctrl..i dn wan my frens to worry for me..so no matter hw sad im,hw depress im,i wud TRY cover it la..bt apparently,i cudn't...duno wat to do lor...

emotionally...i reli dn wana leave...financially,$$ is a big issue wor...BUT im forced to go back aussie...cos of her FACE...haix..why on earth i hv such parents...ppl at work dn understand me...i do hv hidden truth abt my fam..bt so wat...such tings isnt very gd to share in here ba...hmm...

i hafta appear happy in front of my colleagues...i dn wan them to wori for me...bt itz so hard to hide...im 1 hu cant reli hide my expressions de...hw?i dn wana b thr alone...so lonely..no1 understands hw i feel...been cryin everyday...tears kp welling my eyes each time i tot of it...cant bear to leave...n worse of all when i tot of wat SHE tell me..im alr 22...why i still dn hv the courage to oppose her???why???i hate myself...hurt myself cos i hated myself...at times i do hv suicidal tots..

since abt 3 yrs old..u noe...every single tings done on me...i rem clearly...ppl may find it ridiculous bt true...i hurt myself once n again cos i hated myself...she reli made me hate myself more..she MOULD me into sum1 w depressions...to sum1 hu eva took depression medicine b4...to sum1 with NO HAPI childhood...no HAPI days..i reli envy ppl w doting parents..sum tho w/o doting parents,hv doting siblings..tts y i substitute my frens as my fam members..sum mk use of me etc..i dn mind..cos i jz wish for a happier life...

i miss HIM...but...haix.....i reli wan to c THEM,n HIM...i muz revert back to the hapi me again...i hv 2 days to settle myself in PP,then sat when i returned,i muz b a hapi hapi ger again..JUNIE..u can do it de...u noe...actualli aft i came bk,then i realised tt i treasure every single fren i hv..in the past,i hv bren,xuan,von,boo etc...nw...i hv few more,like ting ting,peilin etc..they may nt treat me as their besties,bt i jz wana let them noe tt i treat them as my besties...n i wun fail to treat every besties i hv wholeheartedly..my besties=my fam..i LOVE u all..i wun mind if u mk use of me etc..i reli dn wana leave...reli dn wana leave..HOW??=( crying bitterly...

tired...

2008-01-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

yoz...itz been quite sum time i din update le rite...hahaha...aft wk reli tired to do anyting lo..i like sum of my colleagues at wkplc...fun fun fun...lol..tink i spent most of time with colleagues more than my own close frens..hahaha..met up with shan shan as well lo...hahaha..i love shopping..BUT onli when i hv enuf $$..hahaha...nw tt pay is here,i find no kaki lo...sad wor.... =(

Hapi bday xuanie!!hehe..enjoyed yr bday ma??hope so wor...mit up at my wkplc 1 day la...go eat tog..hahahhaa....same with dardar,booboo...hahaha...the other time met up with hannah...shes reli reli cute wor..heh..nxt time post her photo aft i hv got sum...so fast lo...few mths lata she turning 2...hahaha....my darling cousin...tho nv c her much..wahaha

hmm..sadded...sth wrong with connection...cant post photos...=(...nxt time ba...tata