haix...recently so suay....my hp kena stolen sia...itz my dad's hp actually...hmm...muz go find n buy bk the hp..gt any lobang??Nokia N95 8gb de??reli reli hated the person who stolen the hp.... idiot!!!when i tot tt i muz wk w a thief(w/o knowing hu),damn down lor... reli hor... haix.. seriously muz curse tt whoeva... i mean... stealing... whoeva u r, hw old r u le?? walao.. the more i tink abt it,the angrier i become... hated the person who stole the hp,nt onli cos she/he stole the hp, bt oso caused my ah tao jie feel bad.... it made me double+triple hate tt person... ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!!!

anw..i reli kai bu liao kou tell my parents the hp being stolen...hw sia?? hmm..... reli hor... haix...damn sian,damn sad,damn down..if itz my own hp at least the feeling nt tt bad...bt.. wa..duno hw man...cos the hp model in normal singtel,nokia shop no more le...hafta go 2nd hand shop look c... hmm.. suan le...dn dread on it....hmmm... gona go orh orh niao... hahaha...
Baby,top. || 12:18 AM

wow...recently wk until blur blur sia...as in,duno lei...easily get irritable,n v v tired,even if 2 days ago i jz had my off... hmm..den abit dread gg to wk...bt i mean,still ok la...nt v serious la...tink every1 oso same same ba...hehe... hmm... still feeling very lost everyday... go bk hm mk me feel unhapi n stress...go bk to my own hm mk me feel so upsetting...jz so down... jz feel so unwanted n left out everywhr i go... soso alone... so so dn hv the being care n loved feeling..wonder y i wud feel tis way sia... bt sumtimes once i felt alil loved or care,den im sooo hapi.. tink thrs sumting wrong w me..!!hw sia??

i mean, altho i can be alone, i jz cant tolerate the kinda 'alone' feeling.. n it seems to get worse as days goes by... can sum1 help me?? feel rather depressed bt thrs no1 to turn to... memory like decelerating at a very fast speed...den very uneasy everywhr...wana find ppl to jz let out bt duno who to... den abit onli i wana cry liao...haix..so sicked of myself..!!y m i so problematic??

hmm...dn tok bt unhapi stuff le...hahaha... hmm... recently im soo sooo hungry for teng teng wor...hahaha...anw... my off day flu is here again... haiyo...4eva lidat de... hahahaha... boring boring ar...nth to diary abt...hahahaha... fine...go play games le....tata....!!hahaha
Baby,top. || 6:14 PM

hahaha...c gt wat happenings... eh.... wa...jz happened to weigh myself and ta da... i hv lost another 2kg fr the last time(15 sept) woah....c...the results of hving a supervisor who oways bully me de...ke lian rite... hehehe... bleah~~hahaha.. just joking..

recently @ wk startin to feel so lethargic...so tired...look @ the storeroom nia so sian...hahahaha.. so small space....so many tings... hahaha... anw...2 days back aft wk went nana's hse n stayover... hehehe... b4 tt went to watch movie la.... mayb cos scare i cant wk up or wat,den i cant slp much... hahaha... probably if the following day is a off day,den i will slp more in peace.. hoho.. bt i enjoyed myself la~ heex.. happy happy~~~

hmm..received my posb bill... wooo... saw partyworld bill...so miss gg to sing sing sing.... hahahaha...simply love gg out... haahaha... tmr gg to isetan to c the japan fair b4 mitting ah dar aft her wk... lol.... nw im rotting @ hm nia... sooo boring.... my poor thumb sooo pain...bt the swell went down abit...haahha...tts all for nw la~~heehehe..
Baby,top. || 8:35 PM

hmm... end of my lame story....itz a story....so abit kua zhang...bt the main ting reli happen... wahahahaha....as in...the STARE..~~wahaha

okok...lets crap ard... bt duno hw to start... hahaha... hmm...i wana sae..my nana dn like me.... =( bully me... break oso muz force me to go aft her (wahaha..itz a lie) eh....oways abuse me physically...(wahaha..actually is mentally n emotionally) WAHAHAHAHA...nola....actually is jz the 3 add tog....lol...(another lie)most impt of all,she gave ppl 6 days off,n onli gave me 4...u c u c..!!!isn't tt being bias???cos she dn like me.... to tink i tot shes sooo gd to me...wahahaha...so lame~ nola... jz a joke...hw can it be??my nana sooo luv me(tts my tinkg...wahahaha..nt mentioned by her)....soooo i oso sooo luv her la~~jz like hw i luv my dardar n all la~ hehehe...BLA~~ jz rubbishing ard.. hehehehe...

wa..reli getting older le...jz these recent mths.... many of my close frens,or ex-colleagues or secondary frens,all engaged or married liao...kaoz...tis is sooo sad...hahaha..im stillllll single... wahaha...OMG!!!haha..die la..will i be like left on the shelf?? lol... wait expires jiu cham le..i still wan to hv my own fam de... LOL...wat a lamey ting...

i miss my gan ma etc...hmmm.....so funi...shes onli 5 yrs older than me n shes my mummy??!! hehe..i dn even rem hw come i became her god-daughter sia...hehehe...bt tt was like many yrs le...she sosososo teng me..hehe..@ 1st abit shy shy,den aft tt xi guan liao...kp on 'mummy front,mummy back..' hehe.. shes the 1st person to reli reli teng me n care for me de..my studies n everyting...reli act like my mummy.. hehe..last yr she came wintertime looked for me lei..so harpi...bt onli for tt 1 hr.. =( haha..aft tt she went to brisbane le...we nw onli talked in msn.. i gt a ah dardar...jiemeiz.... heh.... den i gt darlings,dears n baobeis...ohoh.. i gt a ah jie as well..shes my senior...i oso dn rem hw she became my da jie..4 yrs older than me..!!bt short term de la.. onli occasional msg or msn each other..

actually i hv oways wanted to hv jiejies to teng me,or even meimeis for me to teng... sae is sae la..bt if reli hv,mayb itz diff le.. hahaha...bt cos i dn hv,so if i sudd hv 1,i wud reli treasure a lot...hehehe...aiya...since fated dn hv,den oso bo bian la~haha..bt i hope to hv jiejie... hehehe... so childish rite...bt reli lor... i hp to hv lotsa teng teng... tt kinda jiejiely love...hahaha... i c my frens hv den like soo xingfu lidat...i oso wan...hahaha...dar,y nt u upgrade la..become my jiejie,instead of my mei??can??hehehe...bleah~~

crap a lot sia...hmm...recently nana unwell...muz tk care ya.. =) wa...ytd i was like sudd gona die lidat....sooo uncomfy...den today half half....lata in the day begun to feel uncomfy liao...bt still can dong la~hahaha...boring sia...gona orh orh liao..nitez...
Baby,top. || 11:28 PM

junie's short story 1...

title:tales of the staring incident~~ HA HA.. tts sooo lame...
actresses: junie,whitie (i tink is a zha bo..).... HA HA

one fine day,morning,junie went to wk...den aft wk junie took a bus and came home....(tts obvious...) ok...tis is how the story goes...probably a wk ago,my hse the lift under upgrading.. sooo...hafta walk to the other lift to tk the lift la...so itz a lil further fr the bs as usual... actually tis is jz to mk the story longer... WAHHAHAHA... so... eva since tt lift was thr...i,or i shld sae,my nanny daughter n i began to notice tis white cat(which i named it whitie)...this cat eva frighten nanny daughter...n it looked fiercely at her...bt din attack her la~wahaha...den whitie very enjoy life one...oways lying on the platform sunbathing,if nt observing ppl... hahaha... (okok..bk to my story...) sooo,today,tis whitie n me walked the opposite direction.. as in whitie walkin towards me,n i, towards whitie..fr abt a 100m away,we started to STARE at each other..as we walked..we stared...den we stare n stare n stare....hahaha...den at the pt we 'cha jian er guo...',n even walked past each other,we were still staring at each other...den the further we walked,the more we stare..then... .....whitie stopped...it's head turned firmly n staring at me...woooo....sooo fierce.. bt i continued to stare at it...all the way until i was near the lift den i said.... bye-bye....ignore it n continue my walk to the lift... ahhahaha...soooo...isit a nice story?? WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.... lame..~~
Baby,top. || 11:09 PM

hmm...let me c...got wat to update lei???hahaha...ok... eh... tt day walked past many children boutiques n saw many many pretty dresses...got the itch to buy gif my darling hannah wear...bt hor..come to tink abt it,hannah wear dress looks abit weird..cos shes nt very girly..er...jz like me..im definitely cmi in dresses..hahaha...tho i oways wana try wearing 1..bt...the tot of it....eeee.. wahahaha...anw...so funi...like...sum ppl wear dresses n dressed up girlily wud look so swt n pretty,yet sum look weird..mayb cos i oways c hannah in pants tts y i feel weird..or shld i sae,all my zha bo cousins like dn wear dress de..waahahaha..my mum side de.. genie,rachel,jolene,hannah,me...we r seldom seen in dresses...except sch uni..wahahaha..

eh..ever since duno when,i duno y i began to stink...like....duno lei..bt when i asked my nanny,they sae dn hv ar...haha... im like...even aft shower i still smell...haha..den my nanny daughter sae itz my own tinking...reli meh??oh no..im suffering fr sum psychological prob liao?? haha..leading to me tinkg i stink,or reli i stink??haha..felt v embarrassed lor..hahaha

i oways felt so out of plc...so xtra...so hmm....lost...so left out....hahaha...duno hw to describe sia.. n im so so scare...so so no security...jz like i fell fr sumwhr high above tt feel...or being chased by dinos w no1 saving me kinda ting..wahaha..these 2 days i jz wana hide myself up in a hole n dn come out..nt reli emo la..mayb tryin to tao bi..bt duno wat...jz dn wan ppl to c me in my lousy self i guess..wahahaha...

anw..received bday prezzies fr my colleagues...so harpi...so po fei...aiyo....bt gan dong la~~thankies... lol...then i oso gt a GV buy 1 get 1 tix..until end of tis mth..bt dn tink i can use le la! =( nt much time left anw... hahaha... i had many bday wishes mentioned in an application..hope all come true..if nt...at least let the 1st few come true...hahaha...wat else...the suan ming uncle nt accurate...cos my bday is alr over n my mr right still nt found..??!!! =( how??hahaha

sooo wordy le ar...hmm...then i cont tmr ba...cos sum1 here sae her hse gg to hv a big explosion liao...wahahahhaa...*pray tt all will be gd for my jiejie* hehe..nitenite
Baby,top. || 1:44 AM

woooo...4 off days.....wat hv i been doin??hahaha....jz lidat n itz gone???!!!!!!hahahaha.... hmm...

14th-worked half day...den aft tt went chinatown with nana..cos she oso claim hr...haha.. den gan dong la...~cos wana get mini bday cake gimme...heex...tian zai xin li....LOL....

15th-my actual bday....dar took half day leave....den we went to orchard central...walked awhile den went to paragon eat sushi tei...brendan came aft tt,den last min decided to go watch movie-G-force....itz soooo cute....hhahaha....aft tt met von then went swensen eat...guanhe came along later on...heex...of course in btn gt lotsa kuku funny tings happening la....cos i hv kuku dar ma...n kuku frens...heex...i had fun tt day too...hapi hapi...!!heex... =)

16th-stayed at hm whole day...rest whole day to prepare for 17th...heex...

17th-went out with nana...hmm...went woodlands de party world...sing sing sing...hahaha...i sing like shit....hahaha....hmm....nana sing soooo niceeee.....hahaha...aft tt went kuishin-bo eat...lol... so bu hao yi si...let her spend so much....hahaha...den walk ard jp lo...haha... hmm...actually seems nth much rite....bt duno lei....i reli had lotsa fun n reli happy...heex...enjoyed myself...soo sooo sooooo sooo hapi...aiyo....gladie...~~

hmm..tis yr my bday seems nicee...seems gd~sumtimes itz nt whr u go tt u enjoy yrself,is the ppl u r with...hahaha....wa...recently duno isit cos i nt enuf slp or wat,i tend to let tings slipped off my mind...sadded!!my memory deteriorating liao...how?? =( hahaha....oh no..am having flu nw~~ hahaha...so random...dotz...
Baby,top. || 6:17 PM

hmm...all along i tot i dn feel sad...bt when i went to the wake jz nw,i felt abit of she bu de...n sad... i cant even get to c her 1 last time...i tot i cud peek thru the coffin...bt...it was covered...it was reli a regret...y do i oways hafta wait tings to happen le den i regret?why did i kp procrastinating?? itz like so sudden...the other time with my ah ma oso...haix... i tot of the times when i was young,she took care of me...i like gg dnstair to her hse....she wud gimme swts...on shows let me watch...kp pouring orange soft drink gimme drink...suddenly i so miss her... ah ma, u muz rest in peace k......i will oways rem u.... =(

anw...went to the wake...den wa...every1 knew me...bt i duno majority of them la....den all like... 'wa....y u slim dn soo much??' or wa....'u looked darker...' or...'so long nv cya le.....grow so big n tall le ar....??'wahahahaha....so funi....

today whole day wana roar...ROAR~wahahahaha..... den so moody moody...no mood sia....hmmm... wana slp le....ahhahaha...random~ i muz learn to treasure every1... hehehe... =)
Baby,top. || 12:11 AM

tt day went mum mum with nana @ swensen...hahaha...hmm...tt nite sooooo fun....sooooo funi.... soooo hapi......cos she lame lame de....then ahhh....we r sitting in front of each other,bt we talk to each other thru FB la~she dn wana hear wat i sae de...so bo bian~~the onli time when she 'listens' to me is onli when i talk abt her gan ma...hehehe...bt i oso duno y tt day like so fun...hahaha....hmmm...nana cham le...she gt the same ear prob as me le.....oh no...!!!hehehehehe...bt im sooooo hapi to hv nana as my fren....hahahaha....so random....lol

hmmm....another day went out with dar for dinner.....went creation eat.....hmm...nana intro de....quite nice....nt bad....den dar n brendan gave me a watch for my bday....wow...!!!so hapi...hahaha....then dar sae im her lucky star cos go out with me nia she managed to find all her ting...hahaha...

hmm...sometimes i find why isit so hard to hv my freedom of talking??was it jz me who does nt wan conflict or wat???am i nt a human??y cant i use the word tired ne??or dn i hv the right to sae im tired??y others can sae tt except me??am i nt wkg?or wat?very funny lei...haix....dn i hv the rite to be unhapi?cant i be unhapi??weird lei...every1 hv their own prob de ar....itz nt wat u tink nia ar....i hv so many other stuffs tt none of u noe de ar....so who r u to sae i dn hv the rights??itz my choice ma....

haha...itz time to change my lappie liao...cos my down arrow spoil le....space bar sumtimes oso sotsot....computer oso problematic at times....slow running....haix.... lol....recently received afew vouchers fr diff plc....then oso receive those complimentary treats or wateva fr diff companies...lol...

recently kp watchin nana's gan ma show...eh....dn hv the show liao den guai guai de....muz hv at least 1 show if nt i feel funi....die la~~tink i gona get poisoned le....cham le~~hahaha....aiyo...randoming ard....hahaha....anw....made a new spec liao....hmmm....so nw den i gt my astig degree....my right ear tt one is 400...left one nth much...the person sae dn nit much notice for the left one...diaoz...so i din noe my degree for my left...hahaha....nth much liao....end of my randoming...~~~hehehe
Baby,top. || 11:08 PM

hahahaha...nth la~jz update update lor...hmm...so 感动!!!cos nana sae wana celebrate my bday w me wor...wahahaha....so happy la~~so swt of her!!haha...gt ppl wana celebrate my bday lei...hahaha...on the 17th...hehehe... yay...!!!!!so 期待!!!den i shy shy den i anyhow talk lor...WAHAHAHHA...diaoz...!!haha... anw...she recently trying to poison me with her gan ma lor!!!hahaha...

anw..i wana watch final destination..!!!since the start to tis part 4,all im a loyal fan!!hahaha... im saddist rite...hahaha....hmm...tis IT show...dn even hv tt $$ to buy the laptop...haix...damn sad...then my mp4 n 5 all spoil...everyday listenin to hp songs...den wait one of these days my hp sure gonez...!!!hahahaha

hmm...recently,been feeling down,down n DOWN sia....unexplanable DOWN!!mayb cos im wking with all the DOWN jackets...tts y so down...hahaha..lame~~recently,i resort to......i reli feel better lei..perhaps cos i reli hated myself a lot a lot,or mayb itz jz a relieve...duno...hehehehe...

today cos of swt nana,n lame ting,den my day nt so bad...hahahaha...very random la~~update another time,cos nw gona go poison myself with nana's gan ma show liao..hehe...tata
Baby,top. || 10:55 PM

suffocated sia...im having super difficulty in breathing everytime i tink bt it...y cant u ppl gimme sum breathing space....cant u leave me alone ma??can jz leave me alone for a mth or 2??pls....!!! tk it tt i plead with u ppl...................leave me alone....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Baby,top. || 11:09 PM

today nana go taiwan niao..embark on her 11 days trip...hehehe....bt tingting coming bk le...haaha... tmr!!!HOHOHOHO!!!hmm..kept myself so bz today tt time passed soooo quickly...haha...hw nice if everyday is jz like today...hehehe..today sales super bad de wor...at 9+ and itz still a disappointing figure...den suddenly,tis 2 customer came in....in total,bought 4 jackets...hehehe... soo hapi...finally get to hear the diff songs behind...nv hear b4 de...lol...worked till 10pm la...so tired....den stomach cramp...wa...itz killing me~~LOL...okla...nth much to blog lo...hmm... mayb i countdown to national day...heh heh....hmmm...... 16 more days....

LOL......hmmm.....my xiang si bing symptom 1 started liao....flu~~~lol... mayb will celebrate my sick anniversary aft nana's back...hahahaha....
Baby,top. || 12:26 AM

today abit emoooo...hahaha...lame~~duno wat i talking la... anw...today ar....my arm gt tis tingling pain...wow...den i regret.... since young,i gt tis psychological problem...mayb cos im nt 1 who will reli vent my anger on other tings,mayb tis psychological ting in me happened since tt fateful day...i duno...or mayb cos i dislike myself at the very beginning... i told myself i must stop doin tis to myself,bt sumtime i jz cud nt control...i hafta do tis so tt i will feel relieved...den i will be bk to my normal hapi self..fr top to toe...aft doing,den i start regretting...itz like taking drugs... hahaha...wat an example..hmm...anw...tis ting has been gg on until i hv graduated fr poly... i rem once the ting was on my face..haix...cos i hated her!!i wanted to stop her fr doin wat she was doing...so i did it to myself...den aft tt,i stopped....recently again,aft all accumulation n stuff,i can barely tk it any longer...so i resort to tis again!!!why am i doing tis to myself?seriously...i muz tink of a way to curb tis habit...tis psychological problem....tis kinda way of venting out... wat can i do?im at a lost..

woah...!!sumting er xin happened to me ytd in the toilet...2 cockroaches landed in my pyjamas... ah fat n ah thin....i din noe den i wore my top..den sudd,sth dropped to my feet....the moment i looked,it was a cockroach(ah thin)...it jz crawl past my feet...then i was so scare...so at tt instance,i shook my top again den tis time round,ah fat dropped..!!wa...2 COCKROACHES IN MY TOP?????im so scare of cockroaches n yet they hv contact w my back skin n my feet?? er dao bao la~~walao...hahaha....

anw...nth much to sae la....jz super bored nw....hahaha...gona go slp liao...heh...hp everyting is fine n gd w all my goodie frens n fam!!hehehe
Baby,top. || 1:50 AM

hopes......hopes for a hug....fr any1....
Baby,top. || 12:05 AM

hmmm....ytd so down la...cos i saw sum1 who look like... ...then i rem the hurt...then i felt reli emo....hmmm...

to my normal routine life...eh....today off sia...finally get to watch my ice age 3 in 3D..in the past i rem cartoon is watch w dar de...hahaha...nw my dear dar soooo bz...so hard to yue her...so bo bian lor....hahaha....then went seoul garden eat...yumz....bt itz oways said...tts oways sth to pay for aft a nice n enjoyable feast...hahaha....im havin stomach ache...so unwell nw...diarrhoea... walao...hw to go out tmr sia...shall rest then c hw tmr...haix...

hmm...jz wana sae...im reli reli very hapi working w 1 of my dearest fren...more than hapi to wk w her... heh...tho she oways nag nag scold scold sae sae me,still,i LOVE workin w her...hahaha...cos in a way,shes so funi n cute de...oways gt many funi happenings...so the loooong leave she gona tk ar...sure super miss her de...hahaha...mayb to her,im jz a colleague,a staff,bt to me,shes my gd fren..!!haha..piangz...sooo rou ma...diaoz....LOL...n i reli hope tt everyting goes well with Ting....everyting will be fine!!definitely!!!

being random for nw...tempted to get ipod touch,n a HP laptop...hahaha....aiya...i jz love gadgets...LOL...wonders wat hp my parents wana get..hmmm.....hehehehe...

ting to tell myself at the end of the day.....dn oways be unhapi....u muz look on the bright side of life...=)..... .....hopefully!!
Baby,top. || 10:27 PM

piangz...recently abit emo...abit sian...abit upset...over.... ..... so many tings....haix...wonder why muz it happen tis way.wonder y ppl ard me lidat....wonder why im lidat...wonder n wonder... probably cos im too bored at wk then i start reflecting on myself...start wanting to change myself..change my bad self...i 4eva seems to nt reach my own expectations...am i reli tt bad n lousy?or am i jz expecting too much fr myself?*ponder*

am happy recently...cos each time i pray,it will happen tt way...i hv seen many tings turned out the way i wanted it to be since last time...it reli strengthened my belief..serious!!hahaha...then thr is tis ting tt i prayed for these 1 week or so...am glad tt it came true exactly wat i/sum1 wanted it to be la,tho at the same time,itz a down for me(only)...but still,overall,of course,still super hapi for tt 'someting' la...hp tt all turns well!!hehe.. =) *smilez*

hmm...down la...jz workin alone w himssss jz mk me wana scratch my face n pull my hair sia...WAHAHAHA...then im nt one who will vent out my anger unless i reached my limit la... then i oways gt the 'argh!!jz wana abuse n kill myself ' tt kinda feeling when tt person jz come talkin to me...haiyo...duno wat to sae....hahaha...then i hafta oways remind myself tt being nice to ppl is a blessing..haha...no1 is perfect..lidat then i feel better..!!hahaha..

done liao...gona go slp liao...cos tmr gona mk up stories to entertain myself...boring la...haix... sianz...how nice if i hv a remote control to press next...or jz fast forward my day a lil...haha.. aiya...jz let me fall sick tmr...den aft uncle come i go hm...hehehe...crappie me!!lol...tata
Baby,top. || 12:28 AM

Junie
BDAY:15 sept 1986


HK dramas
Lotsa hugx
Companionship
Pooh & frens
Snoopy
Babies
Surprises
Shopping
Movies
Singing
Staying out late w besties
Fun
Truthful ppl
Hapi frens
Gadgets
$$$$(LOL)
brendie dar
buddies/ppl whom i love
cousins


Liars
ppl who bully my besties
creepy crawlies
inconsiderate ppl
forcing me to do tings i dn like
talkin on the phone


happy frens
go bk USYD study soon
HP 13" laptop
N97 mini
N95 8Gb
Ipod touch
bags
$$$$
any cute stuff